By, Adeline K.

Red Carpet Affair.

2010-12-23T20:47:00.005+08:00

"I had the time of my life, and I never felt this way before, and I swear, this is true and I owe it all to you :)"

A committee of Red Carpet Affair/2010;

Head of Information.

It all started in the middle of this year where I volunteered to be part of the committee. Okay let's skip the story to all important parts :)

We were taking things really slowly tbh, and at the end of the day we were RUSHING like nobody's business. By the time SPM ended, we practically dedicated all of our time to Prom. Preparations for everything. Registration, backdrop, videos, performances. All sorts!

During the week of Prom, we practically sweat our asses off for the whole day until the day Prom arrived. Which was yesterday.

The night before yesterday, we had a problem with our backdrop and thus seeked for help. The morning of Prom day, I woke up early after having only a few hours of sleep. Rushed to pick my committees up to help with the backdrop. Got back home, rushed like crazy over the backdrop. Showered and rushed to Empire.

We set up everything, got ready everything, checked and finalize everything and finally did the backdrop. Which was an epic fail at the end of the day. All our hard work went to waste when we watched it tumble down, and that's it. End of backdrop. Blah -.-

BUT EITHER WAY, that wouldn't ruin Prom would it :P

By 2.30pm, Wenyi and I rushed to the hotel room to shower and rushed to the saloon to do our hair. At first my curls were too heavy for my liking but I was loving it in the end of the day :) Rushed back to the hotel by 4.45pm and rushed putting on our make up. Loved my make up. It was simple and chiq, and nice.

Notice : The word RUSHED was used in almost every sentence. YES WE WERE PRACTICALLY RUSHING.

Headed down to the lobby after we did our make up, met up with my Registration crew and started registration. Many people were late so yeah, what the heck everything was delayed. Many problems occured too, but thanks to my committees we were able to pull it through :)

Emcees for the night were Muayyad, Muidz and Aesya. And they 3 did an awesome, awesome job though it was spontaneous without any practice. Thank you guys so much :)

Performances were great. But sadly I for one didn't get to really sit down and enjoy cause I had to run up and down, in and out just to ensure that everything goes on well. Not to mention, MY HEELS WERE KILLING ME.

Food, was, awesome. HANDS DOWN. I'm serious. Everyone complimented the food, not even ONE insult. I guess that was worth their money, eh? :) And yes sadly again, I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO EAT MUCH. -.- Only had a piece of Roti Canai and a few bites of food during Prom the whole day. I was about to collasp and die.

Awards?

Prom King - Cheong Mun Yue.

Prom Queen - Andrea Chua Pei Wen.

Best Dressed Male - Rodney Christopher Aeria.

Best Dressed Female - Michelle Heah Li Yin.

Best Couple - Daniel Yong Ee Ming & Debbie Ho Kit Yan.

Dance floor was dead to be honest. And Arif went missing during the slow dance session and I was kind of pissed. :O

Later on the real dance floor start and it was dead! Rawwwwr why la why :/ But either way here comes the exciting part, for me at least! :D

My favourite people were missing. Even Wenyi who promised to dance along with me. I saw her at the backstage and went to her to pull her to the dance floor but she friggin' pushed me away. With the height of my heels I seriously almost lost control and fell. She was acting all weird and went like MY MOTHER CALLING ME with her phone in her hands. And I was like whaaaaaaaaaaaaat? I turned behind several times to find my other peers but she kept pulling me back.

And then she turned me towards my back.

And I saw Arif. Kneeling down on one knee and asking me to be his.

With a bunch of romantic words which I wanted to melt on the spot listening to them. :')

He wore on a necklace around my neck and I saw my other brother, Premmie handling over to him a bouquet of Roses. :)

The song that was playing? Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are :)

People around? Cheering, congratulating, clapping, and singing the song along. :)

Tears filled up my eyes but I obviously couldn't cry hysterically or my make up would be ruined. Teared and wipe them off, teared and wiped them off, and slow danced with my boy with Bruno Mars' song :)

Bie, thank you for making that night so special for me. I know I'm a very hard person (and I seriously mean it, it's very hard to give me a surprise because I'm THAT smart to figure out fishy tricks) to be given a surprise to but you still managed to pull it off :) I love you so much and I love how you made the ending of that night as a happy ending. No one would ever do that for me and you are probably the one and only boy who would ever do that for me. I love how you made me become the spotlight of the night, and I love the fact that people were congratulating me. :)

Thank you so much for everything. I love you.

And there's it, officially together on 22nd December 2010. :)

So that's it. Prom started to end. :) It was a memorable night. And quote : The most memorable night of your life. It is indeed, meaningful. :)

Didn't really slept that night actually. Spent the night at the hotel with my brothers and we drank, and 2 got drunk and tipsy. Whoops! Jack Daniels, ;)

Pictures time! :)

Sherlyn;

Best friends since Form 2.

Wenyi;

Bimbo mates since Form 1.

Laura Chien;

My favourite girl to talk about fashion to;

And also my Noob!

Phoebe;

Best friends since Standard 1.

Cherlin;

My make up si-fu :D

Debbie Ho;

My Noob, my favourite bimbo, and won best couple.

Daniel Yong;

Debbie's boy;

Got close to him this year;

And I love his wacky-ness :D

Chin Hua;

The Dog who I tease a lot;

But still my favourite Noob :)

Jin Onn;

Goldfish, and my zha-ing partner.

Hao Ran & Wenyi;

Oliver Leong;

My ex husband;

My favourite Noob. :)

Laura & Debbie :)

(I miss Amanda so much!)

Girls!

Jian Onn my Mr. Handsome and a very good friend;

Eu Mun my advisor the the person who knocks sense into my head;

And er.. Yeah. Laura, and Oliver disturbing below -.-

Chin Hua, and Shen Yi;

Shen Yi's always with me during exams :D

Jian Xiang;

My favourite cina apek Noob! :)

Muayyad;

My good friend and an pessimist but awesome Emcee.

Kantharuban;

MY BROTHER WHOM I LOVE OH SO MUCH!

Rodney;

Whom I used to hate so much;

Who got fatter since Form 1;

Who won best dress;

and who is very handsome that night! :P

The Amigans and Browserians;

Jie Sheng, Zhi Wei, Daniel, Patrick.

Jian Yuan;

Friends since Form 3.

Patrick;

I dunno how I got close to him but he's a very nice person :)

Zhe Kai;

My other Noob.

Mun Yue;

The Prom King, and the good friend :)

Daren;

The good friend before.

Sharlene;

The hot chick :D

Andrew;

The new friend I made just a few days before Prom!

Zhen Yi;

The head of ground, and the gentleman.

Adeline Lee;

The one who's pretty and shares the same name :)

Roland, Dimitri.

Fu Ying;

The talented SMK USJ 12 singer.

Janice;

The good friend.

Kantha; Premmie; Rodney;

The ones who I thought I'd never be close with again;

My new brothers :)

Pheng Yeik;

A nice person but I've never gotten the chance to be closer friends with.

Ken Yue;

My neighbour whom I just found out like, this year.

Alex and Prabu;

The two whom I watch them grow so much since Form 1.

Jey Son;

Friends since Form 1;

and also I'd never thought we'd be friends again :)

Boon Seng;

An awesome friend and person.

And finally, Arif;

The boy who made a change in my life;

The boy who gave me the biggest surprise;

The boy whom I love the most.

At the end of the night :-

Make up removed, time for bed. :)

And for that, thank you all committee for being such great partners to work with. :)

With that, I rest my case and duty as the Head of Information, a part of the RCA committee 2010.

ps: My desktop. Which is super clean now. I mean, yeah still messy but before Prom the WHOLE desktop was filled. I deleted so many things already :)

I can see it now.

2010-12-06T23:06:00.003+08:00

HIIIIII. :D

Oh hai don't you miss my presence! Ikr. :)

SPM! Fuh I can't believe time flew by just like that. Seriously! It felt just like yesterday when we were sitting for our first BM paper. In a blink of an eye, I only have one more paper left to go! Well, two to be precise. Biology's on Wednesday and EST's on 15th. But who the heck studies EST right? So by Wednesday, I consider Merdeka already.

All these years in SMK USJ 12, :') Ah save that for another post shall we?

Here, a proper update of how I've been feeling lately :)

stuck in love with each other :)

Words can't describe how I'm feeling right now, but I'm so, so, SO lucky to have my two best friends with me. Through ups and downs, they've been there for me. They've listened to me and no doubt. Sometimes I wonder, why is it when we're getting closer and closer each day, we tend to fight even more instead?

It wasn't too late when it came to my senses telling me that Friendship is all about sacrificing for each other. It hurt me a lot when I get involve with an argument with either one of them. Times where I thought our friendship would come to an end are times where I would've rather die than not having them as my brothers.

I have Kantha, my adik whom I love oh so much. Although I'm supposed to be his kakak, it seems that he treats me more like a younger sister instead. Well.. I think so. He loves me like crazy and he sayangs me like crazy :) He gets me what I want and pays for my meals or even a cup of drink when I ask him to.

Thank you for being there for me all these while. And I'm sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings.

Kantharuban a/l Gunasekaran, I love you. :)

And most importantly, I have Arif, my special someone. He's Kenyan! And I like it. :9

I used to think that there are way too many obstacles in between us. Complications and difficulties for us to be together. But I guess if true love is there, then nothing should come in between, right?

Bie, I know that I've been terrible to you all these while. I didn't hit me up till today where I realize that it isn't all about me in our relationship. I'm sorry I've been such a stubborn and spoilt bitch. I hope that you would understand that it isn't my intention to be this way. I love you even more each day and I'm lucky to belong to you. You know me well, I'm straight forward. If I don't like someone, I'll just say it right out to their faces.

I guess you were the one who made me realize that I don't want to be the only one being pampered. I want you to be equally as happy as I am whenever we're together. You know me, I won't change for anyone. I expect people to accept me for who I am, if you can't, then simply fuck the hell off.

But for you, I'll change. No matter how difficult it is for me to relax and swallow up the anger in me, I will. Because nothing makes me happier than to see you smile and be who you really are whenever you're with me.

Thank you for being patient with me up till today. From now onwards, you don't have to be patient anymore. Simply because you won't have to have a reason to be patient. :)

Abdul Arif bin Kaharuddin, I love you :)

A rose wilts and dies, but it doesn't mean that it'll disappear as long as you keep it with you.

Same goes to us, bie :)

2010-11-06T08:50:00.001+08:00

PROMISE I'LL UPDATE ASAP. PROMISE!

Good luck SPM takerzzz. :)

Swifty Taylor.

2010-10-12T19:21:00.008+08:00

"She deserves a better chance;

but I'll wait."

Homagod Laura updated her blog. Thus, I shall update mine to. And talk like her :)

Hello hello. I know I've been pretty emotional lately but I'm back to who I am now, I guess. But whatever it is, it's been a while since I spilled on my blog on how I spent my daily activities with the Noobs yeah? :)

Exams were practically killing us all and we hadn't got the time to really ber-bond together. And urmmm this exam was fine I guess. I swear to God I tried avoiding tips. I did Sejarah and Moral paper all by myself. Once I receive a text regarding tips, all I do is forward to my friends and delete them all, :D Except Physics.. and Chemistry, where my tuition teacher gave anyways. -_- But Chemistry was one tough paper I swear. Physics was surprisingly easy. :O

Anyways, my current addiction now? Road trips. Hell to the yeah. I remember how difficult it was to go SOMEWHERE with my friends way back then where we hadn't got our license but now with our P, it's super convenient going anywhere you want to, no matter how far it is. :D As long as you have a car, and a few legal drivers, jyeahh. Bring it on. No more conversations like :

"Jom breakfast."

"Sure. Where?"
"Taipan."

Imbafolftwwwww.

So yeah, now our road trips consist of a few cars following one another. A leader, and few followers. Me likey.

So anyhow, last Friday was the last day of exam for me. But I skipped. To go breakfast with my road trip kakis - Hasif, Arif, Kantha, Roland, Jian Onn and Panda. :D Initially we were suppose to travel all the way to Damansara for Nasi Lemak, but once we reached the two cars got separated and uh.. we end up going back to Subang for lunch, instead of breakfast where we actually planned out earlier. Foos, then back home. Stardeeee.

And Saturday! T'was the best Ace-ed lesson evarrrr (in a few years). We had this Financial Education thing and it was a-w-e-s-o-m-e. Last week was only the 1st week! 2 more weeks go go, and I can't wait for this 2nd week :)

It was a looooong weekend. 4 days of weekend to be precise. Since there's no school on Monday and Tuesday, which is today.

Spent my whole Sunday hunting for my Prom dress at Mont Kiara, Kota Damansara and Bangsar! Literally went into 101 shops and spend 2 hours in the last shop contemplating to choose between two colours fml much. But it was worth it, :D T'wasn't the design I actually wanted but gahhh, this will do I guess. I like it, a lot. And I just realize that my brothers & I have the same shade of colour on our outfits for our proms. Non intented pun!

Monday, was the most boring day of my life. & I, seriously cannot wait 'till all tuitions are over. I'm sick of tuitions and I don't ever wanna attend one more tuition in my whole entire life. Maybe except Ace-ed...

And today!

I met with ma Noobs after like.. 4 days? Ahh I miss those girls :)

Well initially I was darn lazy to join them and I thought it would be cancelled so yeah but Kantha missed me so he forced me to go so I was like, okay. :D And he drove me! That illegal driver freaking speed through red light okay I thought I was gonna die. Bahahah but it was niceee. And the best part of it was he let me drive. So it was finally, driving my friends around without parents, and driving as fast as I want to on the fast lane. Heaven. :)

Since I have like 40 bucks worth of vouchers we had our breakfast at KFC. Went to U20 at first but it was closed so we went to SS 15's. And they should all thank me 'cause not a single cent was needed. Okay maybe 10 bucks. BUT THE BREAKFAST WAS FRIGGIN' 60 BUCKS. Who eats such expensive breakfast y'tell me. I'm generous. They should love me even moar ;)

My cravings for Snowflake returned but it was still closed when we got there. So yeah, AC it was. Pool and foos. 'Twas fun :)

Then it was tuition with Panda. And Bawang Merah with her after tuition. Cause we were starving. I 'paid' 40 bucks for KFC and I only had a small piece of drumstick. Now am I not the most considerate friend there is?

School commences again tomorrow. No more exams. I. can't. wait.

The last battlefield? SPM 2010. 42 more freaking days.

AHHHH I LOVE MA NOOBIES.

ps : Taylor Swift's songs were playing like over a hundred times when we were in the car. What tha effff.

2010-10-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

It's you that I want, you that I need. Not him.

Emotional post don't read if you'd get annoyed thanks.

2010-10-08T17:55:00.008+08:00

Behind every smiling faces;

there would surely be a problem that exists.

I hate it when things happen just because you can't control how you feel, your emotions, your thoughts, and your doings. 'Cause to me it sucks so damn bad because I know that I don't mean doing it, and that I feel terribly bad doing it. But I can't control myself, I can't take things like that.

I hate it even more when I decide to do something which I keep telling myself not to. The more I stop myself in mind, the more I want to do it. It doesn't work the opposite way. I've tried. It's so weird. I'm suppose to be focusing on my SPM now which is merely 46 days away. I mean, this study mood, it comes on and off. When I really have the mood, I can sit down and study for a few hours straight. Or else, I would have ZERO study mood. Nada.

Sometimes when I can't control my feelings, it makes me feel weak and poor. It's like, knowing that it's a wrong step and it's gonna take me to a wrong direction, but yet I still pull myself deeper and deeper into this silly little mistake. And I hate it because I know how it feels going too deep into something where I can't turn back. Wait, I can. But I've experienced that terrible pain before and I don't want to try it again. But why am I doing this? :/

I'm not sure if this is a sort of distraction I'm having that causes me to not study but I'm pretty sure that it's not. It's just that I'm too bored, that's why things start kicking into my way.

This is insanity okay. I want to study. I really want to. But my 2nd Trials just ended and I feel so LAZY. It's not that I'm lazy I keep telling myself to study but when I face the books I really have NO MOOD AT ALL. D:

Y'know what's worse? Having these thoughts in your mind that disturbs you oh-so-much but you just can't seem to express them out to anyone, or even express those feelings and thoughts into words.

'Tis wrong. I know it is. But I've fell and I can't go back. I'm a sucker for self controlling, serious shit.

But looking at him each time and faking that I have no feelings for him at all? Looking at him each time knowing that I actually have deep feelings for him and am desperate to let him know how I actually feel, but I can't either way?

It's worse than having to see someone die before my own bare eyes.

It's a mistake. I know it is. But it'll be a mistake than can never be mended.

End.

Concrete jungle where dreams are made of.

2010-10-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

How long has it been since a proper update?! I dunno. D:

Anyways to those faithful readers who still bother reading my blog, HI :)

2 weeks have passed so fast and my 2nd Trials are about to come to an end :) Few more days and it'll be the last school exam we'll be sitting for! Next up, SPM :/

But anyhow, this shall just be a short update. I've been studying Chemistry to whole day (although I get bored of it somehow -.-) and I have to get back to it soon! The papers were fair. I could do most of it, the ones that I've studied of course. And I tried avoiding tips and leak questions, except that 2/3 subjects where I really needed them, D: But I'm still proud of myself ;)

Just to let ya'll know, I've been dared to tie like this :-

TO SCHOOL.

Lol yes you can imagine the amount of weird stares I had. It was humiliating! And yes the eyebags, :S I know I know.

And on last Sunday we went beraya at Arinah's house. It was cool, 'cause we bertolak in 3 cars and Arif got lost!

My favourite shot with my girlies :)

Good food, good company, good ambiance :) I wore a Kebaya! Haha vintageee.

I've been driving a lot. I drive to school everyday, :)

OKAY back to Chemistry. Lousy update I know!

Soap is effective in soft water because soft water contains Mg and Ca ions. Soap is not effective in hard water because it contains Mg and Ca ions. Scum will be producedddd. And detergent is effective in both soft and hard water. Detergent do not form scum.

Tralalalalala :D

DiGi iPhone 4 Life.

2010-09-27T17:07:00.002+08:00

Finally with these 4 posts on the iPhone 4, I'm done with the 4 tasks for the competition in order to win an iPhone 4 from DiGi :)

I do hope that mine is interesting enough to win Nuffnang's heart!

And with that, I really do hope that I'll be able to win this contest :) But even if I don't, I'll seriously respect the person who won for his/her creativity. Good luck all! :)

DiGi iPhone 4 Real.

2010-09-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

DiGi has obviously the best rate choices when it comes to the iPhone compared to Maxis!

As referred to the August 2010 issue of Seventeen magazine, the comparison of price between the two network line Maxis and Digi has already shown and proven to us that Digi has the better offer! Like we always say, Digi - always the smarter choice :)

What I love about the package the DiGi offers is that we don't have to pay that much of a Monthly Fee! We'll only be charged of RM 58 after auto billing each month and that is more than affordable for me! After all I wouldn't be able to use a lot now since I'm still a student, can I?

Besides, if I were to choose iDiGi 88, I'll only have to pay RM 58 each month. And the best thing is, I'll have 200 minutes free calls, 200 free SMSes, 20 free MMSes and 1GB free of Internet! ONLY FOR RM 58! :D And what more, to ALL LOCAL NETWORKS!

Even after I've over use the usage of what the iDiGi 88 offers, I only have to pay 10 cents per SMS! I'm kind of a heavy text person so yeahhh that is definitely super affordable!

In spite of the cheap and affordable package that they offer, we can also make cheaper calls to Friends and Family and WHAT MORE! Free calls and SMSes to our supplementary lines(up to SIX!)!

THIS IS TO DAIIIIIIIIIIIIII FORRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Just like Seventeen says, Our iPhone winner is DiGi! :)

DiGi iPhone 4 Play.

2010-09-26T15:23:00.001+08:00

My favourite iPhone apps would probably be Twitter for iPhone, Facebook for iPhone and of course, Shazam!

I am definitely a 100% Tweeterholic and I can't live a day without tweeting! And all I have on my poor little LG is just to send my Tweets to gladlyCast sms without knowing my followers Tweets. All I can do when I'm outside is to wait to come home just so I can use the computer to check on Twitter. I can be referred to as a online narcissistic actually. I actually Tweet about every single thing that I do and that's how important Twitter is to me!

Facebook for iPhone? Hah! Go figure. Facebook is probably the biggest social network around here nowadays, I mean, who hasn't got Facebook!? Updating statuses on Facebook via iPhone is awesome because on Facebook, it'll be stated that it's updated via iPhone. I get envious seeing statuses like so, and sometimes I wish that I could be the one doing that too. I mean, I do use my brother's iPhone but knowing that it doesn't belong to me makes me even more desperate for an iPhone!

And lastly for Shazam, it's because I'm also partly addicted to music. Driving in the car for a long journey would definitely make me listen to the radio even more and it pisses me off when I couldn't catch what the DJ was saying about the title of the song! With just one tap, Shazam records and tells me the title of the song - JUST LIKE THAT. Now how cool is that suppose to be?! :D

iPhone 4, you definitely deserve to be in my hands!

DiGi iPhone 4 Me.

2010-09-26T09:35:00.012+08:00

Everyone thinks that being the youngest (not to mention, a daughter too) gets ANYYYYTHING that she desires, that she's the lil princess of the family despite being 17 years old.

BUT NO!

A big, fat. NOOOOOO.

I don't get anything that I want to, instead, I have to WORK my way up into getting it. D: And that's just plain sad because I'm still a student! So how do I earn my own pocket money?

NUFFNANG! :D

Thanks to Nuffnang I was able to earn a few hundred by now and sadly.... only managed to get one very lousy (but usable) phone.

The LG KU380.

Friendly user, comes in handy in the right size, but of course, never as fab and chio as an iPhone :(

iPhone has the best apps ever for teenagers like us. It would obviously make people turn an eye towards you when you're holding the oh-so-new iPhone 4! And for people like me, obviously, would need apps that only the iPhone will provide :(

I want an iPhone 4 mainly because it's the in-trend right now. I even bought an iPhone cover before just in case I will ever get one but I ended up giving it to my friend, :( Since she has an iPhone and needs the cover more than I do. And also because that my TWO brothers have an iPhone! Imagine how sad I'll feel being in between two brothers tapping away on their iPhone without the 'click click tap tap' sound when you text. And I happen to produce that much of noise when I text on my LG :(

I will definitely make full use of an iPhone 4 since it has apps TO DIE FOR! And I know that I can never be able to get my parents to get me an iPhone because I know how difficult they've work just to earn a living for my family and to support my two brothers in their education. Now that my brothers are working, they are able to buy their iPhone themselves but I still have a long, long way to go. I wouldn't want to ask my parents to buy me one because I know how difficult it is for them. :/

Especially with the new iPhone 4 that comes in so stylish, sleek and chic, unlike the previous iPhones, it's even more chio-er for a girl to use it!

Now talking about the new features of the iPhone 4, the Face Time technology has finally took place in Apple! We can now do video calls which would be super duper awesome compared to the previous iPhones, no? Not to mention with it's new Retina displace, it has the highest resolution, most vibrant and sharpest phone screen ever! With displays like that, according to Apple, it'll make text look amazingly crisp and images stunningly sharp.

I'm like a perfectionist. It's like, seeing things in their best way satisfies me. Fuahhhh. iPhone 4 I want you even moarrr naoooo!

And this, would be my favourite one among all.

It's 5 MEGAPIXEL CAMERA WITH LED FLASH.

Okay girls, are camwhores. HANDS DOWN FACT OKAY. Need I say more?!

I can never describe in words on how much I want an iPhone but deep inside I know that I'm desperate for one!

Look at how mighty an iPhone 3Gs is beside my LG :(

And I think and iPhone 4 would be even mightier!

And this is why ..

iWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANT a DiGi iPhone4!

Shoes for sale :)

2010-09-22T19:46:00.002+08:00

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A little bit of you.

2010-09-22T17:18:00.006+08:00

Out of the blue, I went onto my Dashboard on Blogger's account. I came across the few private blogs I had for myself. Those few private blogs that I had when I had absolutely no where to rant about, when I had absolutely no one to talk to about.

I guess it was because I basically depended on just one person for that one year.

I read the posts I once wrote and now, I wonder if I should think back and feel upset about the pass, or smile because it has happened and it's long gone for now.

I realized that it has been so long since. 7 months being single, 7 months of learning now to stand on my own feet again, 7 months of being independent myself, 7 months of learning how to cheer myself up, 7 months of learning how to keep things to myself whenever I faced any difficulties. And I realized how much I used to drive myself crazy, how much I used to cry over things, how much I used to feel so hurt.

Little did I know, that things like that builds me up day to day, to be who I am today. I've broke my own heart enough, I've faced enough of fears. And prolly, this should be the reason why I never trusted guys anymore.

Guys are too much of a heart breaker to me. But whenever I find one that suits me best, I'm never good enough for him.

HI. :) Sorry for the lack of updates and those short random updates :) I've been far too busy to even sit down and think of what to blog about, so yeah.

Anyways, our 2nd Trials will be commencing tomorrow so I don't think I'll have the time to blog for a fortnight or so. Sad to say that I've not even started studying for my JPS trials. I only hope that the school will send in our 1st Trials results, because I've definitely worked hard enough to score well for my Trials this time :) I mean I didn't do EXCELLENT but I've improved tremendously! Only failed 1 subject this time! Which was Addmaths. A subject which I will never ever pass, only once! But it's my highest fail ever this year! Hahah. I usually fail 4-5 subjects okay, so give me a break, :) I've improved a lot and I'm proud of myself.

It's the exact day of the Mid Autumn Festivals. Lanterns, candles and mooncakes. I smell food. Good food :) Family dinner with the relatives tonight, finally, the last one!

Good luck for your Trials, fellow Form 5s, and to PMR students, all the best :) And next year you'll see how easy PMR actually is. :D

Bed time ;)

2010-09-19T11:30:00.001+08:00

Although the decision I made caused me pain,

But now I'm sure that I made the right choice. No regrets.

-

2010-09-17T00:23:00.003+08:00

Maybe it's just me who has been thinking too much lately.

Set your limits.

2010-09-14T20:02:00.006+08:00

I love to love, and I love being loved. Who doesn't? The feeling of insecurity fears me and I like knowing that someone is there to protect me at all times, to say words that makes me smile, to put a smile on my face when I'm feeling down.

I like feeling secured in someone's arms. Not arms, literally. Just, I like being loved. It makes me happy. And I feel safe. Because feeling safe is honestly the best feeling in the world, to me.

But y'know what I hate?

I hate being used. I hate being taken advantage of. I hate it when you appear in my life and make me adore you, and leave all of a sudden. Don't make a girl fall for you if you have no intention of catching her.

I may seem strong, confident, happy-go-lucky and all but deep inside, I'm still a girl. A girl with fragile feelings.

So yes. Please. Set your limits. Before you hurt me even deeper.

End.

Penang Street Food.

2010-09-11T11:44:00.004+08:00

Hey! Sorry for the lack of updates. I'm currently in Penang now to kill time during the holidays. Well actually I'm suppose to be in Thailand right now but due to the big crowd of people in the immigration, we decided to ditch Thailand and stay in Penang. Which explains why I'm still at home and have the time to blog because there is NOTHING to do in Penang other than eating -____-"

I ate like an elephant yesterday, and I was actually on a mission to snap a picture of everything I eat here but I only managed to snap TWO because those food were so tempting! Couldn't be bothered to take out my camera, :/ Foodgasm I'm telling you! Rawr :D Besides, the hot steam that comes with the fresh cooked food blurs up the camera lens. So.. chyeahhh. :D

Authentic Penang Har Mee that got us waiting for more than an hour for it's appearance! Om nom nom nom.

Asam Laksa, NOMS.

Anyways, time to go now. More noms ahead! Love ya'll. :D

Ace-ed Farewell 2010. (II)

2010-09-06T13:40:00.001+08:00

It's a place where I go to every Saturday at 4-6pm for god-knows-how-many-years. It's a place where 2 hours flies by really quickly. It's a place where I have fun. It's a place where I can be myself. It's a place where I can show my true leadership quality. It's a place where I express my thoughts and feelings in words and actions. It's a place where I learn how to be a more confident person. It's a place, where I have learnt SO MANY things from.

I will never forget the day I've started stepping foot into Ace-ed. From the shop lot above the pet shop, to now, opposite Alliance Bank. I've grown so much in Ace-ed, learnt so much in Ace-ed. My high level of confidence, as well as leadership comes from Ace-ed. My epic, siao, extraordinary ideas, comes from Ace-ed as well.

It's sad to say that it'll be my last year there, but wait fo' me, I'll be coming back fo' sure. :)

So we had our Farewell Party yesterday at Bukit Jalil Golf Club(BJGC). Started off at 12pm when I began to do my make up, since I wouldn't have time to do it in the Golf Club itself. And left for Ace-ed at 1.30pm. I was one of the earliest to reach, and somehow felt sesat and nervous. :S But anyhow, those girls made me feel at home so finally I was having fun with them all day :)

Our bus was the latest to arrive since it went missing somehow, but on the way to to BJGC was funny :) Ser Hwei was hyper like crazy in the bus so we teased a whole lot about her and Li Yang :P Haha I love how outgoing those people are :)

Anyways, fast forward.

When we finally reached and enter the hall, I saw Jack, Ji Sheng and Chun Yang and I was like WHAAAAT you guys join Ace-ed too!? LOL! Small world, seriously :)

Later on we were then placed into different groups of movie since the theme was Celebrity. I was placed into Prince of Persia, and my sub-set group was Emma Arterton. Isn't it suppose to be, Gemma? D: Er nvm.

The first thing we need to do was to come out with a small presentation to win the Golden Ticket which my sub-set didn't win, but I was proud and happy with the other sub-sets in my group :) Those presentations were hilarious and fun to watch, :)

Teachers then did their performances for us to watch, which was of course, x100 times better than us?! Hahahah.

Then, the winning sub-sets had to do a MOVIE PARODY while the losers had to do a performance to show our teachers gratitude. Had to prepare for 1 hour and ours was a hugeeee embarrassment but nevertheless, we did have fun so it's all that matters :)

Got ready and all and it was time for us to change into our costumes. I felt awkward at first because not a lot of people bother dressing up but later on, nyahahah. I won best dressed! :D I only tied my hair to a pony tail at first because I didn't have time to tie it into a bun, but then a teacher asked me to tie it into a bun so with much persuasion I asked Pek June's help to spray tonnes and tonnes of hairspray on my hair to make the bun stay so voila! A messy bun :D But it was awesome, so doesn't matter :)

Then the movie parody started and all of them were HILARIOUS. Hahah. Especially Soon Yong's one but I don't know why didn't his sub-set win but it's okay, I'm proud of what he did :) Iron Man's group won for the entire day so yeap, congratulations! You guys definitely deserve it :)

And the losers were..... *hides face* Lol.

Then erm. It was the Token of Appreciation for Old Students time. And wow, time definitely flies. I've been in Ace-ed for 9, years. ALMOST a decade. Seriously. I'm so gonna miss Teacher Anne and all the programs we did. All the presentation, writings, WHERE else can I find things like that, :( Sigh.

I then decided to make an impromptu speech in front of hundreds of students and teachers on behalf of my brothers to thank Teacher Anne for all her guidance since my eldest brother started way back when her tuition was just in her house itself. I got all teary and wanted to cry, seriously. Gave Teacher Anne a huge tight hug :( That's definitely one of the most impromptu and biggest speech I've done after learning it for so many years in Ace-ed. And yeap, I'm doing it for the first time in an Ace-ed event too, :')

Anyways, blahblablah and it was the DANCE FLOOR time. Woooohoo. I went wild and I can't even remember the last time I partied so hard! It was fun partying with those girls and dancing all the way. My legs we practically SORE and THANK GOD I didn't wore heels. I would've died. :S When I got home, my legs were so tired I could barely stand in the shower, I'm dead serious :O

Then yeah.. that wraps up the night. Took pictures, :)

Before I left for Ace-ed :)

After the night ended :)

NAH. The sampat poh. :P And Li Yang whose just Form 4! Lucky him he's gonna continue another year in Ace, :(

Saturday, 4-6pm :)

Prince of Persia! :)

And er, yah. The fishy sampat perasan-ted photographer.

Changed into costumes anddddd :-

Zen Zuan as Phua Chu Kang, :) And my darling Soon Yong!

Dillon! :D

Phoebe as Blair Waldorf :)

My sampat as Tyra Banks. LOL.

My arms look HUGE -_- But anyways, SOON YONG! :D

Ah I remember slapping him like siao in one presentation years back :')

And MYYY Li Yang. (Ser Hwei. :P)

Aww lil boy I'm gonna miss you! (Lil boy my ass look at how tall is he -_-)

Those shy but talented girls ;)

Soon Yong pimping with Natalie and Ser Hwei.

Jeffery Soh the Larry King!

Omg FINALLY I found someone's name spelled as JeffEry instead of Jeffrey :)

Dude I'm gonna miss you like siao :(

My artistic, Dillon :)

Yam Yih Hwan :)

Shu Kim the WRONG SIDE LAH girl :)

Yih Hwan and Li Yang :)

Aunty Amy!

FISH!

PCK :D

Leong Jian Sheng LOL.

And then we got back to Ace-ed and reached at prolly, 12+? D:

Group pictureeee.

Last shot of Mr Larry King :D

Sayangs :)

Okay I officially have fat arms -.-

TEACHER ANNE! :D Don't miss the Kongs :(

So yes.. to wrap this post up :)

Ace Ed-venture, Saturday 4-6pm,

I LOVE YOU GUYS! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Ace-ed Farewell 2010. (I)

2010-09-06T01:27:00.001+08:00

Saturday, 4-6pm.

Ace-edventure, truly the best.

More updates tomorrow, I'm exhausted :)

2010-09-04T22:49:00.001+08:00

ADELINE KONG JING WEN, STOP PROCRASTINATING.

Sparks fly, it's like electricity.

2010-09-03T19:25:00.004+08:00

Hi, :) It's the Raya holidays! And I'm not thrilled about it because I am REALLY REALLY gonna miss school. Fact that it's gonna be a long 2 weeks :/ After this holidays, we'll be sitting for the JPS exam for 2 and a half weeks, and then it'll be ONE FRIGGIN' MONTH LEFT TO SPM.

TEH HORROR.

I am SO not ready. Seriously. NOT ready AT ALL. :/ SPM sounds like a big word, unlike PMR :( Maybe that's because I can't study last minute for SPM, le sigh. No can do, everyone has to grow up. I'm gonna have to stop procrastinating, seriously. I'm freaked out.

I just tore the other exam schedule that was over few days ago, and NOW I have to stick another one back to it's place, this is so not fun.

Noobs, study group? :(

I cut my fringe 2 days back! More like I'm forced to cut it off by my Mom -_- She never likes me showing my forehead so yahhhh... back to bangs and I really don't like it now, :/ Too short!

Last picture with my longer fringe (with my natural wavy curls that I made by tying my hair to sleep) :-

Which do you think suits me better? Long or short fringe?

I think there's a lizard crawling in my dustbin. FML.

I'm heading to Penang next Thursday, :) By airplane. Because my brother is too free to purchase cheap airplane tickets for the fun of it. But oh well, FOOD, I shall FEAST on you :) Though I really hope there would be a friend that comes with me, D:

And I've decided on my Prom dress with much advice from all my girlfriends! I only showed it to a few friends or else everyone is gonna know how I'm gonna look like on Prom :O I'm only waiting for my Mom to really support me in making that dress, but 'till it is gonna be done, I'm thrilled about it! :D Sarah gave me the inspiration to find my own Prom dress online and custom make it, so it's gonna be one in a million on that night. :) I started searching since then and found ONE particular dress that really caught my eye. Kept on searching though, in case I find one better one but nothing beats the one that I first saw. And I found it through my first search.

Hehehe, I can't wait :)

Hmm.

Oh and Ace-ed Farewell's on Sunday! I just found out about it few days ago and the theme is CELEBRITY. I haven't been attending classes for 3 weeks since I have to go for John Quek's seminar so yeah. I was thinking on who I should go as, Gaga and Katy Perry will be kinda difficult and I'm sure many others would dress up as them so it's out of the list. I have time constriction anyways! Marilyn Monroe was my 2nd choice, but where the heck am I gonna find a white flowy dress in a few days?!

Thus, with the help of my brother's girlfriend, we've come out with one extraordinary one, :) Shall not burst the bubble though! Wait and see :)

I can't wait for it, seriously! Imagine the fun and impromptu presentations we're gonna do on that day, after studying and learning all our skills for god-knows-how-many-years for me :D

Aite then, will update about the event, hopefully it's interesting enough for an update. Lol.

BYE :D

Merdeka.

2010-08-31T12:00:00.009+08:00

Happy 53rd Birthday, Malaysia :) Thanks for giving us 53 years of independence!

In conjunction of our country's National Day, I'mma blog on why I love Malaysia on this sad afternoon of my Merdeka Day, hehe :)

1. I love Malaysia because of the multiracial people around us. Racists are all around and I maybe be a racist to CERTAIN people who are super unethical but how often do you come across countries with people having a different skin colour? :) We're special like that. Special in the sense that we have our own weird behavior as well, one very special one - WE ARE NEVER ON TIME. (Excuse me for that because I am definitely not a Malaysian when it comes to that, I'm ALWAYS on time and I hate being late.) And also the unethical behavior we live in where we do not give way to people coming out from trains or buses and just rush into it. (I'm sorry but I'm not one of those Malaysians either.) But heck, where else do you find special people like us?

2. And because of the multiracial residents we have in Malaysia, that gives us, DIFFERENT KIND OF FOOD. Food, is important to us Malaysians. FOOD, is why we live in Malaysia. Where else in the world would you find hot steamy Nasi Lemak? Or oily fried Roti Canai? OR even a simple fried Maggi Goreng?! Where would you ever find Rojak, Ice Kacang, Cendol, Stay Celup, Chicken Ball Rice, Pan Mee, Prawn Mee, (and the list goes on and on and on)? Where else in the world would you be able to find a Mamak store at 3am in the morning?! No other place, but MALAYSIA. You'll never live in hunger, here in Malaysia. Also for the fact that we get to eat other countries food from here as well. Like Dim Sum from Hong Kong, Japanese food, Korean food, Thai food, Mexican food, you freaking name it, we've got it. And it's easily available ANYWHERE! And I also love the fact that Macdonalds and KFCs in Malaysia are 10 times better than others in different countries in the world! I've been to so many countries and nothing beats the Macdonalds and KFCs in Malaysia!

3. The weather. Okay, I admit. No one is ever appreciative in this world. When it's too hot, we complain. When it's too cold, we complain too. But I guess having ONE season in Malaysia gives us benefits - WE GET TO WEAR ANYTHING WE WANT ANYTIME! Unlike western or other eastern countries, when it comes to a colder season, we would have to ditch the summer clothings and wrap ourselves into thick winter clothings to keep us warm. We would have to buy different clothes all the time. But here in Malaysia? We can wear whatever we want, and buy whenever we want :)

4. SHOPPING. Now you've got to admit, some shopping spots in Malaysia are HEAVEN. Since I live in Subang, my focus place would be of course, here. Of course.. Pyramid would be pricey but sometimes it's still affordable. But y'know what's best? SUNGAI WANG, KUALA LUMPUR. That is the BEST shopping spot I've ever been to because they sell CHEAP, AFFORDABLE clothes and not to mention, NAISE! And when I say cheap and affordable, I really mean it. You see shops that states "All for RM 25" and they really mean it :)

5. School. Let's leave private school out of this topic. But government school? Chyeahhh. Honestly, where else can you find schools other than in Malaysia (or Singapore, or other weird countries like Iraq) without airconds? :) Our schools look special from the others because it's not as big and special and nice as others. I don't know how to say this, but it gives me a warm feeling being in school. I love school. :)

6. To relate this with no.5, Malaysia is awesome because if gives multiracial Noobs in my group of friends in class. :) Kantha's India, Rajiev's Cindian, Arif's Malay. Now is THAT 1Malaysia or what? :P

7. I love Malaysia because of the low standard exams we have compared to O-levels :P I mean honestly, we're already suffering with the topics we learn now, what more following the real standard that we're suppose to be learning at this state of age? :P 'Nuff said! Go figure!

8. Malaysia consists of different languages and cultures. Cultures may bore you to death, but I swear that some of them are really interesting. I, myself would love listening to interesting cultures, especially the traditional ones. Languages! We have Malay, English, Chinese, Cantonese, Hindu, Hakka, Hokkien, you name it! As an English educated person, I find it real fun to learn how to speak Chinese, especially when I have friends around me who speaks Chinese :) Not to mention, here in Malaysia, we would be given the opportunity to learn other languages from other parts of the world too. Now THAT'S an advantage :)

9. I love Malaysia for the fact that it has an interesting History on how Malaysia is developed. I mean, Sejarah is boring but if you were to go to Melacca, you would find the history on Malaysia interesting. Because I for one love how interesting the story goes. But studying, is one thing. Knowing, is another :)

10. Lastly, I love Malaysia for it's strategic location which protects us from any unwanted natual disasters such as Earthquakes, Tsunami, Volcano Eruption, you name it. Now isn't that a good reason to love Malaysia? You get to live in a safe place, without worrying when the volcano would erupt :)

There, my 10 reasons why I love Malaysia. Of course, there would be more but, isn't this 10 enough to speak on how proud I am to be Malaysian? :)

Happy Merdeka, Malaysia!

ps : Damn, why isn't there any events on Nuffnang that requires us to write on why we love Malaysia? :P I couldn't be bothered to write to win movie passes but this.. lulz. :)

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2010-08-31T00:13:00.000+08:00

I honestly don't think I look particularly better in make up,

and I don't want to be known to others that I only put on make up to look better,

but I do love the confidence that make up gives me.

Lulz, Happy Merdeka everyone :)

adelinekongjw.com :)

2010-08-29T23:15:00.008+08:00

YO SHIZ what a way to start an update! Well I'm exceptionally happy today 'cause it's a Sunday. And tomorrow's Monday. And I don't have to go to school. Because I told my Mom that there'll be a Merdeka celebration crap, but actually I don't think there will be one anyways but I'm LAZY to go to school okay! I need to restore the amount of rest I've been losing for the past few weeks during exam. :)

So I've been attending John Quek's SPM intensive course for 3 weeks now, and thankfully it has ended today :P This week was Biology and it was obviously better than Chemistry and Physics. Only difference is that we have LOADS to write on for Bio. :S

We feasted. A LOT. Because Panda's fat. Like seriously. I'm bloated even until now. No more snacks for months, I have to stop this unhealthy diet -.-

Anyways the reason why I'm actually updating is because..

I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN DOMAIN. :D

Thanks to Tsi Wey, of course! Without her I wouldn't even come to know about Exabytes :) And thanks to Michael who has helped out a whole lot too :)

For those who has always been wanting your own domain, what are you waiting for?!

Just head on to Exabyte's page on Facebook and follow the SIMPLE instructions to get your free domain!

But the in between procedures can be complicating as hell so PLEASE do not ask me anything if you get lost. Okay fine I kid. But I prolly won't be able to give any help anyway as it already gave me a big headache. :S

So yes, a big THANK YOU to Exabytes :)

Since today will be the last day for the intensive course thing, I took the chance to get my magazines from Popular at Summit. Splurged on them for 20 bucks ohemgee but it's worth it as usual :P Might consider to not buy Seventeen anymore though, D: Not worth it, in my opinion. But yays I have Cleo, Seventeen and Female to read now! :)

Bie bought me my bottle today so yes I'm happy! It's so damn cute okay :)

Anyways, time for bed, will update soon enough, shall be a hardworking blogger now! And will definitely change to a better blogskin soon, :O And and and (MUST) clear some links already. -_-

Nights! Have a great week ahead :)

I wanna see your peacock, cock, cock.

2010-08-27T19:32:00.004+08:00

I used to hate make up. I mean like, seriously seriously HATE make up. :O I scold my friends who spends their time making up and end up coming late to an appointment or whatsoever. I told myself that I will never touch make up unnecessarily. I always tell myself that being natural is the best. :O

But er.

With much persuasion from my friends and cousin, I tried make up.

Gosh, the difference. :O

And now, I'm pretty much addicted playing with make ups. -.- It's not about how prettier you would look like, really. It's about how fun it is trying to make that eye line perfect. And how it actually boost up your confidence level :)

But the money to purchase them make ups, scares the hell outta me. How can someone spend so much on make ups? D: It's so damn expensive. I know for sure that I will be damn sam tong to purchase them lor.

But it's fun so who cares.

Wenyi and Sherlyn have another makeup partner nao. Hehehe. :)

Anyways I was bored this afternoon. And it was damn damn damn hot. Don't ya'll realize that the weather these days are crazy? Mad.

So I played with make up :D And only did on one eye though. 'Cause I do it best my right eye. I'm a make up newbie okay, so no harsh comments please. Actually, I don't even need any. I'm just doing it for the sake of updating my blog. Lolol. :D

Fat face fat arms fat neck fat face fat arms fat neck x1000.

But I lovelovelove my eye :D What an achievement, seriously.

From a make up hater, to a make up lover. I discriminate make up too much :(

And the other day, I was trying to go for a gothic look by applying eyeliner both on my upper lid and lower lid. My camera went out of battery so I used my laptop's webcam to snap this picture instead. And er, I obviously sort of fail? Retarded imba wei. Needs. More. Practice. And. Help!!

Okay bai please excuse my lameness. :)

OH HAVE YOU HEARD OF KATY PERRY'S PEACOCK? AWESOME MAX LOR. My class monitor is so gonna love me. :)

There's something bout love that breaks your heart.

2010-08-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

Yooooooooooooo.

*throws confetti all over*

Trials are finally over babyyyyyyy! :D

Can't wait to receive the results. I mean, I didn't really do THAT well but with the amount of effort I've put in for those few subjects, I think I would be able to at least improve? ._.

Anyways, :D Oh yeah.

2 and a half weeks seem so long, D: And I despise my exam place 'cause it's HOT. Can't wait to sit back under the fan tomorrow. And be with those Noobs all over again.

Though some noob people won't be going to school. -_- Loser.

Anywayssssssss.

Remember how upset I was over the postponed date of my driving exam? From 3rd August to 7th September? It's postponed again now. To 21st September. Yes. Serious shit. I. am. PISSED.

Screw those JPJ people. Seriously. Waste of time and money. And y'know what? I'm actually having my 2nd Trials on 21st. FML.

But I'll be going with Daniel and Nicholas :) So yeap, company. Yay.

I need to watch soooooo many movies. Noobs, when are we going out? :(

So eh, what have I been doing lately.

1. My fringe has grown so long I decided to not leave bangs anymore and push it to the side. Till I beh tahan only I cut la :)

2. Pimples. I dunno why.

3. My UK cousin went back yesterday. After being here for 6 weeks. Damn this 6 weeks passed so quickly. I hardly had time to spend with her, :(

4. Went shopping at Sungai Wang. And got 4 dresses for 54 bucks. :D Seriously love shopping there. It's so damn cheap. And naise.

5. Bazaar with the Noobs.

6. I think I had at least 6-7 rounds of Snowflake. Because of my cousin. I'm sick of it now. :S

7. Crash course during the weekends. It'll be the last this week - Bio. Missed 3 classes of Ace-ed already. I miss those sakais.

:) I'm actually elongating the length of this post because I don't know what to blog about. o.o

No more blogging mojo fer me.

Till the next update then, bai :D

In the midst of Trials.

2010-08-11T00:23:00.002+08:00

My fringe is loooooooooooong ._.

It'll be the third day of Trials tomorrow(today), and we'll be sitting for Sejarah 2 and English 1 :)

And I'm only updating my blog now because I'm rewarding myself to come online pass midnight. Y'know why? Cause I'm happy and proud of myself for studying Sejarah the whole damn day and I've finally mastered 2/3 of the essays that I'm gonna write on for tomorrow. I'm not gonna be over confident, but I'm happy that I did. I can actually make it 3/3 but I'm lazy and it's getting late! Haha, so yeah, I shall not be greedy. I've did all I can, I've tried my best, so I'm gonna leave the others to God :)

This is how my table looks like, exactly at this moment. And that's not even the whole table, just half. Haha I love looking at the mess. Because it means that I've studied hard enough.

I won't know what to do if my mind becomes blank the minute I see the paper tomorrow, seriously. And I won't know what to do if I fail Sejarah once again. I'm not aiming for a high grade but at least an improvement?! Roar.

This exam is making us Noobs drift away from each other :( Haven't been spending proper quality time with them lately. And I've not talked to Debbie at all today wtf! I miss my Fatty :(

Anyways. It's getting late. :) Shall hit the sacks now.

Till the next update, good luck on your trials, Form 5s. :P

ps : I'm sorry for the spelling or grammar errors if there are any. I'm rushing to finish up this post because I wanna go to sleep :D

Don't call my name, don't call my name.

2010-08-06T10:38:00.005+08:00

From Laura's blog :)

My best friends, are my Noobs. And if you know me well enough, you'd know who those 14 people are. And I don't know if I'm as important as they are to me, because I know that they have their own best friends, but as long as they're my VIPs, that's enough for me :)

Just a short post before I head off to study again. Yes I skipped school. For a few reasons la. And I'm glad that a lot of people skipped too. So my Facebook chat list has a multiple people being online :)

And for those who knows.... Yes la I'm scared. -_- But so what? 20 more weeks and I'm outta there. Twenty. Dua puluh. Er shi. Yi sap.

The only thing I'm seriously gonna miss are my Noobs. I mean, we've been through so much together. Took us so long to finally be reunited in class, all 14 of us. But yet not a single complete group photo yet. Laura and Zechary's fault.

I love them all, don't know what I'm gonna do without them next year, everyone's gonna go their own separate ways. I don't know if they'll even give a damn about me but I know I surely will :( Especially my girls. And Zack, Oliver, Jian Xiang, Chin Hua, and Rajiev. And Zhe Kai? :(

Sigh.

Anyways.

Happy Birthday Debbie Ho!

(far right)

Sorry I can't be in school today to celebrate with you :( Who ask you to skip school on the wrong days? :/

But I still love you! So much. Because you're a huge bimbo. And you walk very slow. And you accept all my teasing for you because you know that I'm not serious. I love you because you're like a dumb blonde :) But you're actually not. It's just who you are. And that's what makes you special.

So don't ever ever change. Because if you do, I won't love you as much anymore. Because it's not the Fatty that we know.

I love you Fatty. And I wish you all the best in life. Study hard for SPM, I'm sure you can do it. :) And also I hope you remain a sweet loving relationship with Daniel. :) Happy 17th Birthday darling. :)

Off to Addmaths. I've been practicing a lot. But still dumb.

Oh and before I go, to you, MADAM, you are an absolute brainless, unethical person. I mean it. :)

Bye :)

:/

2010-08-04T16:04:00.003+08:00

Lo and behold, the Trials timetable :-

Because of this Trials, I have to postpone my driving exam up till 7th September because the initial date on 3rd August was cancelled. What if I forget how to drive and all?

Because of this Trials, I can't have fun with my cousin who got back from UK and would prolly be her last year here since she won't be here for the coming few years.

Because of this Trials, I've missed so many outings and church events.

Because of this Trials, I actually started practicing my Addmaths.

Thank God it won't be for long. Just 2 and a half weeks.

And seminars on weekends with Bie & Panda.

More late nights, more staying up.

Good luck :)

Past, present, future.

2010-07-29T15:27:00.004+08:00

I'm glad that I'm over it. That I no longer have feelings for you anymore. I'm also glad that most memories were out of my mind, that I don't have to recall on all the sweet moments I had with you.

It's been so long, yes it's true.

But upon stumping across those.. words, it made me realize how much we loved each other before. How much we treasured each other so much before. And I realize how much we actually fought over little things. I realize that I wasn't what I thought I was - a good girlfriend.

If you'd ask me, I would say, yes, I regret doing everything I did before. And sometimes I would wonder, if I wasn't like that before, would it save our relationship? Would we be together still?

I don't know. And honestly, I don't even wanna think about it.

Sometimes, thinking of what you did makes me sick. Makes me want to stab you right in the chest. But what's the point? You'd never realize how much pain you've caused me.

And if you ask me, I have absolutely no fucking idea on why we broke up. Because honestly, I don't trust your reason.

I used to get frustrated not knowing the proper reason on why we broke up. But now? I'd laugh at myself for being stupid.

The reason for this post is not because that I still have feelings for you or whatsoever. I am completely 100% over you and I'm happy with who I have right now.

The reason of this post is to remind myself to grow up, and not be who I was before. Being with you has brought many experiences to my life, it taught me a whole bunch of stuff.

And with those mistakes that I made so much, I would learn from all of them.

I mean it, I would learn them all. And correct every single mistakes I did.

I guess we weren't meant to be together.

But thanks to you, I found that one person who stayed loyal to me and remained silent although he was in love with me for 2 whole years. I found that one person who was always there for me when I had problems with my love life. And although it hurt him to help me with my problems, he'd rather stay hurt himself than to ruin my love life.

I honestly don't want to repeat the same mistakes again, and I'll start to treasure every single living moment I have with him.

You? You were just a past. Not a present, not a future.

-

2010-07-26T14:54:00.002+08:00

I love it when the bell rings and we pack our bags up, resorting to the door together where I'd get the chance to use the slightest energy I have to lean against you with your hands close to mine and saying our goodbyes and love yous :)

You have no idea how much I love these people :)

2010-07-20T23:13:00.010+08:00

The best thing about life is knowing that you have that someone who will never fail to make your day a whole lot brighter. Or maybe, a few some ones.

Explorians 09/10; TRULY, the best. :)

My high school life is OSM,

because I have..

the BESTEST Noobs ever, :)

& of course, the best girlfriends anyone could ever ask for, :)

Twelveans Unmasked Finals.

2010-07-18T01:37:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna say much because :

i) I enjoyed the whole night with my Noobs.

ii) Laura was free enough to hang out with us! :)

iii) Mon Cherie was fuggin' hot.

iv) Nova was AWESOME.

Last but not least,

v) NOVA WON THE TITLE BAND CHAMPION!

I can't express my feeling on HOW HAPPY AND PROUD I AM! Those guys rocked the stage and although it was out of expectations for them to win, THEY PROVED ME WRONG BY BRINGING HOME THE TROPHY!

When they were announced as the winner, I instantly ran to Oliver and hugged him! Gosh I was so freaking happy about it! :) And I screamed all night long for them okay! ONLY FOR THEM AH!

Congratulations guys, I LOVE YA'LL and will ALWAYS be your number 1 fan! Nova FTW! :)

And thanks for letting me bring home your trophy, hehehe. I love ya'll!

Time for ze pictures :-

Debs :)

My sexy girlfriends who looked awesome tonight, Panda wore a dress with wedges!

Laura who was missing in class for 2 whole weeks! I can't wait for next week, every thing will be back to normal. And Twelveans Unmasked Finals wouldn't have work without her so ya'll better THANK her nao!

Sexy bimbos :)

I'm his 5th wife and he's my awesome husband/best friend :D Congratulations Oliver! I love you! :)

NOVA! ♥

Jack, Daniel, Jie Sheng, Hao Ran, Kenneth & Oliver.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Us girls with the winner :)

Awwww, ain't us all sweet? :)

Eu Mun and Oliver.

Eu Mun and Laura.

Mai female Noobs :)

Jian Xiang :)

The Cindian I criticize WAY too much on; Rajiev.

Ken Jee won beatboxing!

By the smile on my face, you can tell on how happy I am :)

Jack Leong Jian Zheng! :)

Fu Ying & Laura. The ones who made this event work :)

With Debbie and Mun Chun who won Solo Singing! Congratulations dude! You were awesome!

My fatty Arif as a waiter that night :P

They worked their way up with tears, sweat and blood to get this trophy. I'm so proud of them :) I honestly don't know why I'm having the trophy now but thanks for letting me bring it home! I love love love love LOVE NOVA!

My throat is SORE from all those screaming I did for Nova. Time for bed ya'll! Nights :)

And remember....

I'm always Nova's biggest number 1 fan :')

ps : Videos will be uploaded soon :)

2010-07-17T09:29:00.002+08:00

NOVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Hao Ran - Guitarist.

Jie Sheng - Guitarist.

Daniel - Drummer.

Oliver - Vocals.

Kenneth - Keyboard.

Jack - Guitarist.

OH EM EFF GEEEEE I CAN'T WAIT FOR TONIGHT LIKE SERIOUSLY! :D

Sorry I can't find a bigger picture of their banner but seriously I am so thrilled and excited for tonight! Not to mention, Mon Cherie too! :D

Good luck you guys, I LOVEEEE YOU and I promise to be the loudest person cheering kay! :)

Practicing Nova's mash up so I can sing along with them later! :D

Airplanes.

2010-07-15T17:14:00.002+08:00

THIS YEAR'S CLASS PICTURES :D

So friggin' awesome no!?

OH HAIIII. :)

First of all,

I GOT PICKED FOR NS. :D And I HONESTLY feel damn proud to be chosen okay! Seriously! And among us 14 noobs, HALF of us got picked! Excluding Debbie 'cause she haven't checked yet. She coward la -.-

So it's Jian Onn, Arif, Chin Hua, Zechary, Oliver, Jian Xiang & I. So damn awesome ok. Noob power :D

But either way I don't plan on going so who cares, :P It's cool to get chosen. Seriously.

And to those who didn't get picked, I warn you, don't laugh at us who got chosen because seriously you don't know how the feeling of wanting to whack you up feels like. :P

Twelveans Unmasked is on Saturdayyyyy! I can't wait :D And I'm gonna get all dolled up for this event, hahaha that is so not me but it's gonna be so fun!

All the best to Nova and Mon Cherie! I can't wait for Nova to perform, I should be their no.1 fan okay what the heck.

If only I have a picture of their banners.... but er. I don't. :D

So yah. I can't wait.

School's been fine. Tomorrow's Friday. FUTSAL! :D

So er, I shall update after Saturday night. Bai!

-

2010-07-13T19:38:00.002+08:00

You made the tear glands work, bastard.

It's a small issue. But something as small has this could affect the rest of my life.

After my break up, I don't even remember the last time that I was this upset. After my break up, I don't even remember the last time I cried to myself at home.

Happy now, bastard?

But just so you know, saying that won't make you look any better. Because you're fucking ugly yourself, inside out. And if I'm a guy, I would be 10 times better looking than you.

I like the way you make that body bounce :D

2010-07-10T10:53:00.004+08:00

No picture lah. I ugly already. No time to camwhore. SEE. I only camwhore when I have the mood to do so. So it's only once in a blue moon. Oh yeah.

It's Saturday! And I almost forget to update my blog. If it weren't for reading Laura's updated blog, I would definitely forget about it. Hehh.

This week has been sort of stress-free in school. Taylor's trip, BM ceramah talks, Career fairs.. pretty much like that lah. Haven't been really studying much. A few teachers were absent too.

But Laura masih ber-busy with her Twelveans Unmasked finals thing. I don't like la. Always not in class, missing lessons, I miss her already. Fatty Ho also very lonely without her :( And it gives Oliver more chance to berfoya-foya. So yah. Stupid Oliver.

Yesterday was the Career Fair thing. I didn't bother going to other colleges/universities except the few good ones like Taylors, Sunway and Monash. I spent the most time enquiring details that I needed in that 3 institutions. Others, I just asked a lil'. 'Cause I was certainly not interested :P Sorry but I don't really look at money when it comes to education. I believe on the paying for the 5 stars lecturers, 5 stars facilities and yada yada. Too much influence from my brothers, I assume.

& I sort of decided on what I want to do already. My mom disagree. But I like it. And I'm not going to take anything I don't like. It's my future. God dammit. I have 2 choices in my mind now. But one is sort of tough and requires alot of studying. I LIKE that course, alot. Never changed since the beginning. But the problem is - I AM SO LAZY OF STUDYING ALREADY :(

So uh. I don't wanna go to college can? :( *sticks to 5 Explorer's class wall*

I'll be going to a BM seminar with Jian Xiang, Rajiev, Kantha.. and some other people tomorrow at UM.

Some people FFK like MAD. Made me freakin' pissed off. Grr. Nevermind. I still have Jian Xiang. And Rajiev. Hmph.

If Rajiev FFK, seriously, I am going to go insane. -.-

We had PJ yesterday. I damn noob. I don't know what's my problem. But Futsal was damn fun la. :D I wanna play more. And I heard that it's gonna be the last week of PJ. :( And and we played Futsal near the drain area since the afternoon session kids had RIMUP. So it was near the housing area. And there was a chinese funeral. It's kinda in the chinese tradition to have loud music instruments playing during the funeral right? So when the ball masuk longkang and when I went to collect it with Hasif, he pointed towards the funeral and went like, "EH GOT FREE CONCERT!"

*cricket sounds*

Hasif, is damn funny. LOL.

There's Germany and Uruguay tonight! Paul the Octopus predicted the Germany would win. I mean, kinda obvious la right -_- I don't know if I should watch or not. Because if I do, I'll be half dead at the seminar tomorrow.

AND RIGHT.

I didn't even get to watch how Spain trashed Germany that night. My dad wouldn't let me watch. So I watched the repeat. Puyol's head shot damn chun lor. Yay Spain :D

My cousin's coming back tomorrow. But I'll only see her after I'm back from the seminar. Woot :D

And Twelveans Unmasked finals next Saturday! I can't wait. And I love NOVA. :)

This is totally random, but I've been hooked up on Taeyang's Wedding Dress. And Akon ft Kardinal Offishall's Body Bounce. And I'm making mushroom soup nao. Bai :) Have a nice weekend!

Monday public holiday :) Because of WC finals :) Everyone in 5 E would be sleeping in class. And looking like zombies. :)

Taylors Lakeside Campus :)

2010-07-06T19:13:00.006+08:00

I wanted to blog yesterday, but I thought, why not just leave it and blog today about YESTERDAY and TODAY? But uh.. I sort of forgotten on what happened yesterday so be it, let's just blog about today :D

So it's Tuesday and the day I've been eagerly waiting for! Our class field trip to Taylors Lakeside Campus! :) It might not be something big, but as all of you know, I love love LOVE my class, especially my Noobs. So going on a field trip with them would definitely be AWESOME! :D

I woke up earlier than usual because I was too excited for the trip. Went to school, and waited for the bus to arrive. And btw our bus driver is a total bitch, :O

It's my 2nd time stepping foot into TLC and I've been loving it since the 1st time I step foot into TLC :) It's huge, gorgeous and has the right environment for a college! God knows how eager I am to step into college life. It seems so different from schooling. After TLC was established, enrolling into that campus has been my dream. But whether if I am able to achieve my dreams or not, I do not know :O

Bah. Tin kosong :(

But that's not the point! The point of this post is about TODAY'S field trip :)

We were put into the Culinary Arts program, so yah. But we started off gathering in the Lecture Hall which is enormously beautiful. Miss Stephanie introduced the campus to us and yada yada yada, we had an Explorace. WHICH WE DID AWESOMELY FINE. We ran around the campus to find answers and got the highest among all groups BUT didn't win because we weren't on time :O We actually finished off earlier so we decided to explore the campus 'till we lost track of time. Heh.

Visited the Anatomy Lab, Chemistry Lab, Physics Lab, the classrooms and others and gosh it's so beautiful and definitely different from what we have in school now! :D I can't wait to go to college :)

Later on we were brought into the Culinary rooms and we baked Soft.. Roll I think. Whatever la! It was a failure but it was fun! Hehehe :)

We took so many pictures that now my camera battery is FLAT. I can't even turn it on because it's asking me to change it's battery pack :P Imagine that! Hundreds and hundreds of photos kay!

I don't really remember 'bout the entire trip la, so let's just let the pictures do the talking :D After all, a picture speaks a thousand words :)

Let's start the trip off with a picture of me and my girlfriends whom I love so much!

Panda, Debbie & Laura :)

(And that Harvinth dari Cyberlink yang kacau-mengacau -.-)

Followed by.. the usual couples in class :D

Oliver & Laura.

Zhe Kai & Debbie.

Last but not least,

My beloved lou gong, Jian Xiang & I.

That's Eu Mun in the ugly beanie which I hid from everyone the whole trip 'cause it's making my handsome darlings look ugly :)

And 5 Explorer's very own inside joke,

The Fish and The Flat Face :)

In the Lecture Theater with JX :)

During the Explorace :

I swear these weren't posing shots. We were really finding answers :D

We had to go to the Mac Lab to take a picture, which was located in the library, and even had time to self timer a few shots! :) This is my group :)

Oh BTW the Mac Lab is a computer lab which has I-DUNNO-HOW-MANY iMacs in it! Huge. Friggin'. AWESOME.

Rajiev, the alcoholic and I :)

Bimbos got hold of my camera :S

Oliver, my ex husband :D

Debbie, Panda & Laura; my Noobs :)

Debbie, I & Laura :)

Last picture in the Lecture Theater! Gangster doh :P

Later on in the Culinary Room.. :)

Oliver & his spouse.

The Dog & I.

Laura & Eu Mun.

Me, after mixing the incredibly hard to mix dough.

My Noobs :)

And my PANDA.

The dough's getting better!

The very tired but the awesomest organizers of Twelveans Unmasked; Laura & Zhe Kai.

& the inseparable best friends; Chin Hua & Rajiev :)

My FAVOURITE picture of the whole trip! A picture of my Noobs & I! All 13 of us :) Finally. After so long :) (Excluding that STUPID Zechary Lee Kai Wer-N who refused to join us -.- Which makes it a 13 Noob group photo, not 14. Ugh.)

Let me re-introduce my Noobs to you :D

The guys on the top from L-R :

Zhe Kai, Eu Mun, Jian Xiang, Rajiev, Chin Hua, Oliver, Kantha, Arif, Jian Onn.

And the girls on the bottom from L-R :

Debbie, Adeline, Laura, Amanda.

In the bus back to school :

Debbie and her ugly boy.

& happy shots of JX and I :)

Back in school :

Oliver, my best friend & I :)

Laura, the girl whom I can talk about almost anything to!

Laura with Arinah, the best cupcake maker in the whole wide world!

Back in our beloved class :

Another favourite photo of mine :) A photo which I HAVE to always take with this 2 boys whenever we're together with a camera! Prove? :

Told ya :P

Lou Gong & I again :)

Those were the props we used for our class photo :) Sorry kinda lazy to stick it back nicely again :S

Hehhhhhhh :D Another favourite shot.

Waiting for time to pass while chilling in class :)

Needs no introduction I assume!

I like this picture :)

THE best guy friends and MY best guy friends :)

HURMPH.

Oliver & Panda got tired, thus, slept on JX & my lap. Noobs.

And the last picture to wrap this post up :

Panda & I in Biology tuition. :)

Class photoshoot tomorrow for senior page! :)

I love love love my Noobs!

2010-07-04T23:52:00.001+08:00

1. I seriously miss how you used to treat me so nice.

2. I love you so much, I was hoping that you were mine.

3. I don't know what to do anymore.

Grateful.

2010-07-03T09:48:00.005+08:00

My laptop's wallpaper. :D

Everyday I come home from school, blogging, tweeting, and updating my Facebook status on how I LOVE school.

Fact is, I already love going to school since God knows when, but I've never felt so anticipated to go to school as now! I LOVE SCHOOL! :D

Definitely not for studies, of course. It's the friends that makes me happy going to school.

And every year I say, 2 Finnix is the best class everrrr. Or 3 Genesis is the best class everrrr. I change every moment and when I enter Sec. 4, I knew I had to be stuck with that class for 2 whole years. And honestly, I've never been as happy as I was in this two years :)

Maybe it's because that I have to make total new friends 'cause none of my classmates now are even friends with me before. I hated Explorer because all my girlfriends were either placed in Delphi or Finnix and I was the odd one in Explorer.

But little did I knew, it changed my whole high school life :)

I call my friends, Noobs. I have absolutely no idea how it started. I guess it started when Laura kept calling us Noobs when we.. er.. were Noobs? :S

There's 14 of us - Myself, Laura, Amanda, Debbie, Jian Xiang, Oliver, Chin Hua, Rajiev, Eu Mun, Zechary, Kantha, Jian Onn, Arif and Zhe Kai. 4 girls, 10 boys, because us girls rule like that :P Heh.

These 14 people brought out the best in me, the inner me which I have never really dared to show anyone simply because I was too shy. They made me realize that there's nothing wrong being myself. And seriously, they have no idea how much I love them all :)

Everyday I go to school, I laugh, laugh, talk, laugh, talk, talk, talk, more laughters, and more talks. Ahhhhh words can't describe how much I love going to school :D

Yesterday was Friday! And we had PJ, as usual. And I've never - I repeat, NEVER played during PJ for the whole 5 years of my high school life. Laugh all you want, but I'm serious! This is unfortunately the last year of my high school life, and it's such a pity that I only started to love sports this year. Well, that's because I was too shy to even handle a ball! But my Noobs proved to me that there was nothing to be shy of :)

I joined Futsal and Captain Ball for RIMUP, for the first time in 5 years I'm joining Sports in RIMUP, -__-" Quote - Laura Chien: Though we lost for Futsal and Captain Ball BOTH to Finnix (BOO. Congrats though. :P You guys were great! GG!), we WON for best friends. And that's all that matters in the end of the day :)

Amanda & I played Futsal with the guys yesterday during PJ. Laura wasn't there because she had her prefect duties to follow up with. But it was great fun! It all started with a 5 vs 5 game, as usual, but somehow everyone started to join us. So it's like playing Football in a Futsal court with a heavy ball. Geddit? Hehe.

I was the Defender and I got hurt A LOT (*cock stares at Arif, Jian Onn, etc etc*), but it seriously was so fun! Imagine running and defending WHILE laughing because your friends are just so, ridiculously funny! Like Arif missing the ball when he tried to kick it, or Kantha falling down doing corner kick and making his uniform dirty, or Shahrul missing the goal by hitting the goal post all the time. It is great fun. Seriously :)

And after PJ, we changed in class! :D Thanks to the curtains we no longer have to go to the icky toilets to change :) Followed by the guys spraying deodorants all over. Hah, great fun, great fun :)

Later that day, we had Captain Ball for RIMUP! We lost to Finnix but it was funnnnnnnn! :)

Left school and headed to the TP field to shoot some hoops :) It was funny, I played and gave up. :D Basketball is never my thing. I prefer Futsal :D And I cycled Jian Xiang's bike. It was super duper fun, can't remember the last time I actually cycled. Then we headed over to Laura's house for 100 plus and Shandy because THOSE GUYS finished OUR water.

And lastly, went to the playground for swings and see-saws. :)

Over rall, it was a fun, fun, FUN day :)

My next driving lesson is tomorrow. Hahaha :D

And I would like to end this post with ;

Y'know what's the best thing in life? Knowing that you can be WHOEVER you truly are in front of your friends, because you know that they will never, ever judge you. I'm so thankful for my Nooblings. So, so thankful. & everyday, I thank God for giving me such faithful friends. ♥ I love you Noobs!

:) BAI! It's the weekends. Boo. Can't wait for school :)

The walls start breathing my mind's unweaving.

2010-07-01T09:11:00.002+08:00

:) :) :)

School was so awesome yesterday, I laughed the whole day and got stomach cramps from laughing so much, seriously. What do I do without school? What do I do WITHOUT my Nooblings? :)

Field trip next Tuesday ;

Twelveans Unmasked finale on 17th July - SO. GONNA. BE. AWESOME. Nova ❤ ;

Tanglung night oncoming ;

NOTHING CAN BEAT THIS :D

I love school, I'm so gonna miss school after a few months. Better enjoy the last few moments of school :)

I'm home blogging today 'cause there's Open Day. And in a few hours time, I, am SO screwed. :S

I might not even be able to make it to Rally because of this. Le sigh. God bless me :(

Fut to the sal :D

2010-06-29T21:09:00.004+08:00

I am VERY happy! :D School has been super OSM as usual. Plus there's RIMUP this week! :D

Oliver, Shen Yi and I didn't get into Finals for Twelveans Unmasked but it's okay! I'm glad that we even made it through Semi-finals and there were a lot better ones other than us :) It's a fair competition. Nova got in though! :D They better listen to my advice this time! Can't wait to see them rock the house down during Finals. And Finals this year is gonna be the bomb, THE BOMB. I can't wait, :)

And next Tuesday we're going to Taylor's Lakeside Campus for a field trip. Jian Xiang paid for me, hehe. Thank you lou gong! <3

High school is coming to an end for me and I'm gonna make full use of it for this few months!

And I've not started studying yet. Die or not. I dunno. Wo bu ren shi ni. Hmph.

RIMUP is FUN. I have NO idea why I only started joining THIS year. And it's gonna be my last! Boo :( But thank God I joined for at least ONE year and it's better than nothing. :) It's so fun cheering for my own class and looking at the matches, especially Futsal!

The guys played in the rained today and whoosh, my nooblings were so sexy in their shorts >:)

And though we lost in Futsal, it's okay, at least we had fun! It isn't about winning, it's about having fun, actually :)

Friday's Captain Ball. Can we at least uh, ta pao one game? LOL.

I love RIMUP laaaa :)

Other than that, I'm sick :( Woke up with a sore throat yesterday and started sneezing throughout the whole day. Forced myself to wake up to go to school for Futsal and end up coming home early from tuition the night before because I couldn't stand it anymore, :O

And y'know what's weird? My nose seems fine when I'm in the field but whenever I'm in class/tuition/home, the craziness starts to flow in again. Bah.

And my best friend came for a visit. Great -___-" My whole body aches now. I hate whining. But I hate being a girl sometimes.

Oh, I forgot I have to update the prom's blog. :O

Bai. I love my Noobs. Like gila chun mad. :D And I'm having my next driving lesson tomorrow, :D

tw.

2010-06-27T17:04:00.003+08:00

Few nights ago, I had a really weird dream. We were together and before we departed, I hugged you and cried on your shoulders, asking you to come back.

Weird thing is, I can't remember if you hugged me back in that dream.

Sometimes, I guess I'm the only one who knows the truth the lies beneath everything I say. Sometimes, I don't even know if I mean what I actually say, what I actually tell others.

I'm confused myself.

No air, no air.

2010-06-25T12:06:00.007+08:00

I skipped school.

And the Semi-finals for Twelveans Unmasked was yesterday. It went well. :) I'm proud of Oliver because he didn't screw up his lines. Oh he did but we were singing together for that part so my voice could overtake him :) So yes. Vivien recorded our performance. If I don't find it much of an embarrassment, I'll post it up :)

And many were super good. :O I doubt we'd make it into the Finals. But as far as I know I'm happy enough to even make it through Semi-finals already. So it doesn't really matter to me even if we don't make it into the Finals. At least I didn't waste my last year in high school not joining Twelveans Unmasked :) I tried out, and didn't regret a bit.

Oliver & I might get into trouble for joining hands at the end for like a mere 2-3 seconds though. But whatever la it shouldn't be a big problem. As long as we're not hiding anything behind Pn. Teo I guess it should be fine.

And Nova didn't really do well. :( I told them it wasn't an appropriate song since the very beginning but they refused to listen to me so what can I do. Boo. But Nova will always be awesome. :) It's just that they picked the wrong choice. But I still love them. And I just realized that all the band members are actually good looking. Woot >:D

I'm proud of Laura too. Because she managed to pull the Semi-finals together and it didn't seem like anything went wrong. I couldn't even see it in her face that she was so stressed up until I read her blog. She so pro la, I love her :)

And I'm angry at Debbie because she's a terrible friend when it comes to choosing between her boyfriend and her girlfriends.

[edit]

Here's the video, thank you Vivien :)

And homaigawd. I seriously have no friggin' idea that I screwed up so much :S Never realized it myself until I heard the video. What an embarrassment! D: Please don't laugh kthxbai :(

Oh and this is the most awesomest awesome awesome Nova with all the hot guys in it ;D HAHA! They picked the wrong choice of song but I swear they were DAMN good in the 1st audition! I'm always your #1 fan, Nova (L)

So er. I joined Futsal and Captain Ball for RIMUP. What the heck is Captain Ball ANYWAYS? But I joined. Because I realize that I don't have to be shy or awkward being who I am in front of my Explorians. I've never even played Futsal before. o.o

Today's Friday. We Explorians are suppose to train for our Futsal. But then the boys called some outsiders and I dulan so I don't want to join them. So did Laura. But end up the outsiders all ffk. So serve them right because they are epic phailures when it comes to planning.

And Oliver, Jian Xiang and Zechary came to my house and rang the door bell early in the morning. I was still sleeping. I went down and greet them in my pajamas. Noobers.

I'm done with my Addmaths project. Just one more small section to go. Waiting for Mr. See because he's lazy to email me. And my Moral project. Pictures left. I can't believe I left it there when I could have passed up last year. I kept telling my moral teacher (I err. Forget her name.) that my camera spoiled. :P

I'm going for my driving lessons in 2 hours. I'm kinda nervous. And I forgot what Amanda and Zhe Kai and Arif and Jian Onn told me about starting the car.

And errrrr.

SPM is in another 150 days.

And I have a pile of workbooks looking at me everyday, waiting for me to lay my hands on them.

Seriously, when am I gonna start working my butt off? I'm afraid of SPM because I have TONNES to catch up but I'm super lazy to start studying. Bah whatever la. :S

I had a good Friday morning. Because I woke up. Showered. And masked my hair. :)

I miss school. And my Noobs :)

Forever we will stay, like a pyramid.

2010-06-23T17:54:00.004+08:00

Earthquakes can't shake us,

Cyclones can't break us,

Hurricanes can't take away our love.

Howdy how! :D First of all I would love to wish two of my closest friend ever, Ling Yi and Alex a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May all your wishes come true and God bless you! ♥

School has been going on for 3 days now since the 2 weeks break and am I glad to say that I'm more than happy to be back in school! :) Things will never go wrong in school, I enjoy every moment being in 5 Explorer. We got our class pictures already, and ohmygod it was awesome! And since it's my last year and for the Love I have for my dearest Explorians, I spent a total of 22 bucks on the pictures :)

I wonder where's the Kadet Pertahanan one though, o.o

And I joined Futsal for RIMUP. For real, LOL.

Oh well, since it's the last year, why not. :)

Anyways, results. :S Er well to be honest I am sort of satisfied with my results. I mean, I didn't really work hard for it. (Ignore JPS. LOL) The marks I got was tally with the amount of effort I've put into for the Mid Term exams, so yes, I'm happy :)

But one thing's for sure, I DEFINITELY DESERVE MORE MARKS FOR MY ENGLISH ESSAY COMPARED TO THE FREAKING 39 I GOT. I mean like, what the hell!? Just because YOU discriminate me it doesn't mean that you can give me such low marks! EVERYONE said I deserve a higher mark for my written essay okay?! How can you give such a good and high mark to a much shorter essay compared to me, and even least interesting and factual and etc etc?! UGH.

Semi-finals for Talent Search tomorrow! :O There'll only be 6 finalist out of 30. And we (Oliver, Shen Yi & I) have not really put much effort into practicing it also, D: So our fate should be in God's hand, :) But the practices we had together was really fun! :) And like what Oliver say, "We join not only to win, but to entertain others even more." Haha :)

And errr. What else.

Oh ya I got my L license already! :D First lesson starts this Friday for 3 hours. And I CAN'T WAIT. I am finally gonna drive on the road legally. But I'm sort of nervous too though, have no driven a Manual car before so I have no idea what to do about the gears and to control the clutch and all. But who cares I'm driving! :D

Miss Lai told us that there'll be a field trip for each (Form 5, I think) classes this year. And our 5 Explorer's one will be to Taylor's Lakeside Campus on Tourism and Hospitality which will be on 6th July! Though it's not sort of a field trip but GOODNESS. Anything is awesome with my Explorians! Can't wait. :D 9 more days :)

I'm skipping school this Friday. Teacher's Day? Pfft :P

:)

2010-06-22T00:36:00.004+08:00

Before I go to bed tonight, I would like to say :

"Dear Lord, please make this a significant change in my life. For I can't wait to encounter the remarkable future you've made for us, both, hopefully. Amen."

Something as simple.

2010-06-21T01:24:00.004+08:00

Yeaaaaaaap. That's me in my pajamas. Way pass my sleeping time. It's 1.26am and I have to wake up for school in 5 and a half hours. I can hear you say what the heeeeeeeeeeeeck.

I HARDLY have trouble falling asleep. I'm a very flexible sleeper. I can sleep and wake up easily. And this has to happen on the night where school commences tomorrow. Goodness me.

Even my dog is sleeping soundly on my bed. This is so unfair.

School's tomorrow, I'm excited about it, but it's not the excitement that keeps me awake. Neither is it because of the late nights I've been having for 2 consecutive weeks.

There's a lot of things going on in my mind now. And I feel stupid, ridiculous, dumb. Why did I even allow myself to fall into such trap from the first place?

I know there's no hope for it. I KNOW. But I just refuse to let go. And now I feel stupid for even getting upset about this. I feel stupid for throwing away my sleeping time because I can't get this out of my head.

I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW. AND TWO TUITIONS. I WOULD BE BUSY THE WHOLE FRIGGIN' DAY. GOD DAMMIT.

What the heck am I still doing hereeee?! :(

I lied on my bed for around 45 minutes. Closed my eyes a few several times hoping to fall asleep. But only result in opening my eyes again and staring at the ceiling & that little blue light from the air cond.

This is the real shiznit yo. I am SUPPOSE to be sleeping by now.

I could even stay up for the Brazil vs Ivory Coast match later but my parents would prolly skin me alive if I were to go downstairs to watch it.

OH GREAT. NICEEEEEE. IT'S RAINING. It hasn't been raining at night for the pass few weeks! And it's raining TONIGHT. That means we PROLLY won't have Perhimpunan tomorrow. And we have to stay in class to face that teacher. AND I STILL CAN'T SLEEP. WHAT IS THIS. Wait. It's raining right? Or am I hallucinating? Ok I'm not. I heard thunder.

Sigh.

Count sheeps I shall. Night ya'll. Let's hope school would turn out great tomorrow. And dear Lord I really wanna fall asleep.

Never say never.

2010-06-20T01:39:00.010+08:00

How long has it been since I seriously wrote on a proper post? I can't even recall. :O

Well let's just say that I lost interest in blogging and the simple, short and emotional posts below are definitely random ones :/

And say goodbye to the bright and clean white layout. I decided to change my layout to a darker colour, after so long :D Rose pink for the font colour because I like Rose pink :D

Anyway, I guess I'mma start blogging again as my readers are decreasing SUPERRR much. What to do, never update sure no readers la right, plus my updates are super boring nowadays. But I need moolahs from Nuffnang so yah! :D

Let's see, what have I been up to nowadays? This 2 weeks break is gonna be over in less than 24 hours and honestly I can't wait to return to school! After all, it's gonna be the last year that I'll have to wear uniform and wake up early to school after 11 years of schooling, and being in 4/5 Explorer has definitely been one of the best years in my schooling life :) The only thing that I'm not looking forward to is results; definitely, finishing school at 2.30pm, rushing to tuition, and err, waking up early. But nonetheless, everything is gonna be worth it when I see those Noobs, :) Plus the boy that I've been missing for 2 weeks. Gah.

The 1st week of my holidays was fully packed. I went out almost everyday, settled my driving stuff and all. Had so much plans with the Noobs but AS USUAL, PHAIL. Only Jian Xiang was nice enough to accompany me watch NOES, and haha dayum, wasn't it funny just going out with him. Many assumed that we were dating. & it was nice having him around while watching a horror/thriller movie :D

Went for the Undang and Amali course with Phoebe. Definitely caught up alot with her within that 11 hours that practically killed us. Oh ya, both of us passed Undang :D Waiting for the L license now, can't wait to FINALLY drive legally. Woot! Oh and we both watched Karate Kid and honestly, it's one of the movie which I really don't mind watching again! I have the same feeling against it as I have for Twilight and New Moon. Not to mention, Eclipse is coming out really soon! :D So early this year. Guess I won't be watching it with the same person as I watch Twilight and New Moon with. Definitely not in the same cinema either. Zz. I want to watch Karate Kid again la :P Heh.

Spent a lot of time on the Prom preparation too. Did the blog and am very proud of it, :D For those who have not seen it yet, it's http://red-carpet-affair.blogspot.com. And I for one, seriously can't wait for Prom :) And because of Prom, I've been getting closer to Wenyi. :D

Had band practice with Oliver and Shen Yi quite a number of times too :) For the semi finals of TQ which will be on next Thursday. I'm dead nervous. Haven't even have enough practice for it.

2nd week was boring -.- Hardly step foot outta my house due to a few arguments I had with my parents. Have been having ups and downs a lot too. But er, had a spontaneous plan to have Bak Kut Teh for dinner with Rajiev, Roland, Debbie and Daniel last night. Walked from SS 14 to Snowflake, then to AC, then to Station One since the guys wanted to drink. Thanks to Rajiev, I broke my vow which I made few months ago for not drinking until I'm 18 -.- Stupid fella seduced me with his Carlsberg bottle. Ugh.

Oh and the recent World Cup 2010 has been hitting hard on me too! I've been catching up with all the important matches and I'm sort of into Football now :O So much for teasing Laura all the time, heh. Torres, is soooo friggin' HOT. Stayed up to watch the match against England and Algeria last night and what the heck I can't believe it's a draw match. Nil nil some more leh! -.- Rooney played like crap, he looks as if he was afraid of the ball or afraid of getting injured or something -.- Watched the match against Spain and Switzerland too. And goodness gracious. Who would expect Spain to lose to Switzerland you tell me. -___- Speechless. Even for a newbie in Football.

Stated up late to watch a disappointing match last night, woke up early for Addmaths class today morning. Slept all the way 'till 6pm after class, missing lunch -.- Wth. It's 2am now. I'm not tired at all.

My cousin is coming back from UK :) Can't waittttt. Gonna have so much fun, and I know she's desperate for Snowflake. So am I! :P

1 more day to school :) Gotta get ready to wear that starchy uniform and tie that pony tail every morning again. It's been weeks since us Noobs sat together behind class :D But not to forget, SPM is friggin' coming our way.

'Till the next update, mates! I know this is a terribly boring post but I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT.

Ciao :D

2010-06-17T15:52:00.004+08:00

"One day, I got tired of sitting in front of the laptop. I threw myself on the bed and lie on it for hours.

And then I thought to myself, why am I choosing this path, this unknown path where I don't even understand anything? Everything is so different now, things used to be so much better, so much sweeter.

It just seems like, you picked me up, a tatty broken hearted girl from a roadside, pampered me and showered me with love, and now, you just, throw me away, just like you've never known me before.

Are you waiting for me to message you first? Because I know that I'm waiting for you too."

-

2010-06-12T23:21:00.003+08:00

You make me fall so hard, so deep, so in love and there you go, no where to be seen.

I cry thinking on how nice you used to treat me once upon a time.

What happened to the old YOU when we first "met"? :( I miss the old you. :(

-

2010-06-11T13:17:00.004+08:00

I read my previous post over and over again and asked myself,

Why the hell am I feeling like this?

I don't want to have this kind of feeling, I really don't want to.

RCA.

2010-06-07T20:23:00.001+08:00

A RED CARPET AFFAIR.

-

2010-06-07T15:23:00.002+08:00

I know I'm not suppose to feel like this, but why am I having these feelings?

Just like 103 days ago, I am sitting at the exact same spot as I was. What strikes me is that I'm having the exact same feeling as I felt 103 days ago, not as painful, perhaps, but I'm still hurt.

I'm not suppose to feel like this, that's the truth, I've moved on and I found another one.

But why the hell am I feeling like this?

I might be over him, but seeing this sort of things would definitely bring back the feeling I once had for him. If it takes time to really get over a person, does that mean I'm not really over him? Does that mean that deep down, I'm still not over him? Or does that mean that I just miss everything about the past?

This is the worse feeling ever, I seriously wouldn't want to feel this at all.

Smile, though your heart is aching.

2010-06-05T12:47:00.003+08:00

I love smiling, :) Smiling has definitely became part of a daily activity in my life. I may frown and get upset, or I might even get furious at times, but in the end of the day, a smile fixes it all :) And I guess it's proven, most people prefer to see me smile, rather than the furious/upset face I have :D

So Smile, :)
Because it is an inexpensive way to change your looks :)

DONE. END.

2010-06-03T20:01:00.004+08:00

After 5, freaking, torturous week of HELL,

I HAVE OFFICIALLY CANCELLED OFF ALL THE PAPERS ON MY FRIGGEN' EXAM SCHEDULE!

And come to think of it, I actually sat for 42 freakin' papers, can you freakin' believe it?!

GOSH I'M SO GLAD IT'S OVER.

No more late nights, no more Starbucks session which literally eats my money, no more cracking my freaking head trying to answer the questions that doesn't make sense, no more getting frustrated and tearing the graph papers whenever I can't plot a perfect graph. :D

Not to mention the amount of test pad papers and stationary I wasted on for this exam, geez.

5 weeks have just come and gone, time flew by so fast I hardly realize that it's already 5 weeks -.-

No more sitting in front of class and only facing the damn wall/whiteboard! I can finally restore back to my beloved place behind class with all my Noobs around me :) Can't wait 'till school reopens! The only thing that I'm not looking forward to is.. well, definitely going back late :S No more 1.10pm :( Boo.

As my watch strike 11.35am this morning, I put down my G2 pen, and waited for the class clock to strike 12.30pm. I only took half an hour to finish my Chemistry P3. Haha, it was simple :) God knows why, >:D

When Pn. Hamimah said, "Masa tamat", you had no idea how free I felt. :D I could finally come online the whole day without feeling guilty! Fact that I could only pay attention and concentrate in studying pass midnight, :O I can never study in the day time, too many distractions. That explains the 3 hour sleep every night for 5 weeks! But I guess it was pretty worth it :) I don't have to study pass midnight today, cheers! :D

Tomorrow's Accounts. And I declare my own self holiday since I won't be sitting for Accounts paper! :D Will be heading over to Wenyi's to do our Addmaths project and to BAKE. :) I'm gonna make sure that this 2 weeks break will be filled with activities! I'm going for my Undang course on Sunday with Phoebe, do something to my ridiculous dry and unmanageable hair on Wednesday, take the Undang test on Thursday (and hopefully, pass it.), and go for the Amali test on Saturday! 1st week already filled. What more!?

I'm definitely gonna miss school and my Noobs. But meanwhile..

LET'S PARTAYYYYYYYYYYY! :D

DONE. END.

2010-06-03T20:01:00.003+08:00

After 5, freaking, torturous week of HELL,

I HAVE OFFICIALLY CANCELLED OFF ALL THE PAPERS ON MY FRIGGEN' EXAM SCHEDULE!

And come to think of it, I actually sat for 42 freakin' papers, can you freakin' believe it?!

GOSH I'M SO GLAD IT'S OVER.

Not to mention the amount of test pad papers and stationary I wasted on for this exam, geez.

5 weeks have just come and gone, time flew by so fast I hardly realize that it's already 5 weeks -.-

As my watch strike 11.35am this morning, I put down my G2 pen, and waiting for the class clock to strike 12.30pm. I only took half an hour to finish my Chemistry P3. Haha, it was simple :) God knows why, >:D

I'm definitely gonna miss school and my Noobs. But meanwhile..

LET'S PARTAYYYYYYYYYYY! :D

Paper 3s? LOL!

2010-06-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

Are you happy?

I KNOW I AM.

Wooooooot.

2010-05-28T11:45:00.002+08:00

5 more papers! Imagine sitting for frigging exams for 5 weeks and having insufficient sleep for 5 weeks. Seriously worse than SPM. Wah.

I MAD LAO SAI HAPPY NAO! :D

THE RED CARPET AFFAIR.

2010-05-27T22:55:00.003+08:00

Presenting

The Red Carpet Affair,

A night guaranteed to be remembered.

This event is only opened to Form 5s and is NOT a school event. Do give your support and if there's any suggestion towards the price or any enquiries, don't hesitate to contact us :)

(This is just a pre flyer.)

ps: 'Fret not, we will definitely make it worth the price! :D

2010-05-26T23:45:00.001+08:00

FML I'M DAMN EXHAUSTED.

2010-05-25T02:16:00.000+08:00

I hate you Addmaths. I hate you.

When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight.

2010-05-21T22:18:00.004+08:00

12. more. papers. to. GO.

AHHHH. I can't believe I've sat for this exam for 3 freaking weeks already! 2 more weeks to go and friggen' HALLELUJAH BABY!

I've been lacking of sleep for 72 hours. :S I stayed up 'till 4.30am the day before Mod Maths to do like what, 3 sets of practice? That's the consequences that I have to face for not studying regularly and doing last minute studying, :S But thank God it paid off well, of course, thanks to Chong Huei for staying up and teaching me. :D He could answer almost every question I asked, :S Pro pro.

And I stayed up 'till 5.30am last night to revise on Sejarah. It went well, so so well. >:D

I think something is wrong with my body. Even though I slept at 4.30 and 5.30am for two nights, I WASN'T SLEEPY NOR WAS I TIRED AT SCHOOL. NOT AT ALL. :O

And it took me a while to feel sleepy when I get home too. :S But ah well. I took a nap of 4 hours just now :D

I miss my Noobs like mad :( This exam is drifting us apart. We only have a short while to gather up behind class to talk after each paper ends. For like.. 10 minutes? Or 40 minutes max. Boo :( I miss all of you.

And I'm already planning for our class annual party this year :P Can't wait! But oh noooo I have to plan again and I hate planning because it stresses me out like crazy :( But the outcome is always worth it so I guess it's fine :) My Explorians mean so much to me laaa, they always make my day a whole lot better! ♥

Had our Friday-after-exam planned with Debbie and Laura already :P Can't wait!

2 more weeks. :D

ps: AI finals next week! Go Lee! :D Crystal is really good too :S And I think that Travis Garland is sorta awesome leh :O

Someone to love?

2010-05-18T19:15:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's English. No one studies English. Well, at least I don't. I'm pretty much laid back lately. 2 weeks of exams have seriously drenched the hell outta me, I have no mood to study anymore. Yes I'm pretty much of a failure thank you very much.

Instead, I'm wondering about things which I shouldn't wonder about. Gosh, what am I doing?

Rawr, I miss you.

11 years of friendship.

2010-05-15T01:26:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday, Phoebe :)

It's been 11 years of hard, solid friendship and it's been growing stronger as each year passes.

We've been there for each other through thick and thin and watched each other grow up,

You've always been there for me whenever I needed someone,

You were always there for me whenever I had NO ONE and decides to call you up,

You were always there for me whenever I cried over the phone,

You were always there for me to hear my problems out and gives me the most honest advices,

And no matter how much we fought, you have never left my side even for a second whenever I needed someone most.

Like I said, words can't describe how much I value this friendship of ours, and may God bless our friendship to go on, 'till death do us apart :)

Heck, I even think you're better than having a boyfriend.

Boyfriend comes and goes, but a true friend never will. Although we were separated from each other due to different schools, we never grew apart. And that's what makes me treasure this friendship :)

I love you la bitch. Happy 17th Birthday! :)

Of what could happen.

2010-05-14T17:53:00.002+08:00

The problem is, if I don't do anything, you never will, and all I can do is just tell myself that I love you, but never get the truth delivered to you.

I guess that's how love drives us crazy.

:(

2010-05-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

Oh Lord please save me. I'm super tired :(

Drama, drama, drama.

2010-05-11T16:56:00.004+08:00

I never thought that I'd be able to move on after that tragic break up, but with God's blessing, friends' support and the sudden he's-just-another-jerk realization that came to me, I got over it faster than I thought I actually would.

I allowed myself to be more open, I made new friends, new guy friends, I hung out a lot more than I actually would. I met new guys, new guys who have different kind of attitudes, behaviours and characters, but one was extraordinary.

He cared about me more than any other guys would, he was sweet, caring, and thoughtful even though we were just friends for a short period of time. I wouldn't say short, actually. We knew each other for a long time, but just weren't friends.

I never told anyone about him, except a few close friends whom I know that they can be trusted and that they won't embarrass me. It was that serious, that secretive.

He is a rather complicated person who confuses me, but yet, he has this ability to keep me happy at all times. Just an IM would make my day a whole lot better, just a text would make me smile. He was nice, so nice that he became one of my close friend.

I found myself falling for him, although I don't really know if I should use the word falling. But I guess I shouldn't lie to myself.

I was that crazy that even a picture could make me melt.

That. Crazy.

And then I proceeded into telling my 'problems' to another close friend, who happen to be one of HIS good friend too. And that was when all the drama started.

I found out something which I don't know if I'm suppose to laugh about it, cry about it, act neutral about it, or just simply, get confused about it.

Something which all of them who knows ask me to give up and to move on, just to make sure I don't fall deeper and get hurt myself even more. But I can't just say, GIVE UP, something in me is asking me to help him out, but not to give up instead.

What do I do? :(

MAY'S HORROR.

2010-05-05T15:25:00.007+08:00

So as EVERYYYY 17 year old Twelvean know, we Form 5 will be sitting for our Mid Year AND JPS exams for ONE WHOLE FRIGGEN MONTH.

Yalah our pro school got two exams, so proud doh.

Anyways. I've been staying up late for consecutively 3 nights, and yesterday was the MOST extreme one. I slept at 4+am, woke up at 6am.

Pro or not I ask you. Since when I became this hardworking? I scared la wtc.

COFFEE is officially my best friend :) It keeps me up all night! I'm serious. Nescafe regular ftw? :P

BM 2, English 2, Biology 2, Physics 3, Addmaths 1 and Sejarah 2 is officially dowwwwwn.

36 more freaking papers to go sigh wtc save me.

And to make me feel better, I do this to my exam schedule EVERYDAY. :D You should do it too!

You cross out the papers that are over with a black marker! :P

HAHA FML. I am damn lifeless. But seriously okay the feeling of have a whole month of exam is so bluerghhhh.

Was studying Bio last night, :S Look at my eyebags wei. It's even worse now. They're as big as a 5 cent coin. No joke. I was so desperate for some rest I practically had my laptop on the right side of my study table and my books on the left side. Kept rolling the swiwel chair left and right left and right none stop. Well, after finishing a small section la.

This exam is driving me NUTS, even pimples are popping out of no where lately. Not to mention how I've not been spending time with my Noobs too. I miss talking to them. Sigh.

Anyways, I am able to update today because TOMORROW EST DOHHH. And no one studies EST. If you do, you're a douche bag. Sorry :P And SOOO, I'm waiting for my hair to get dry so I can FINALLY take a niceeee nap. It's been a while since I slept :O

So er, yah. Good luck for ze terror exams. :D And I iz downloadingz Ip Man 2. The connection's fast. :O

-This is such a lame blog post. Sorry.

♥

2010-04-28T00:34:00.003+08:00

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Guess Debbie's gonna be alone tomorrow? Heh. Skipping school :) And Sejarah is officially a pain in the ass.

Canteen Day 2010.

2010-04-24T18:55:00.011+08:00

Let's just say, I'm from SMK USJ 12.

And let's just say, almost EVERYONE knows how strict my school is.

AND let's just say, it's NORMAL to not have Canteen Day.

BUT.

Let's just say, 2010 got Canteen Day ah?! And it's opened to public ah!? GOT OR NOT!?

So yes you've got it right, :P On 24th April 2010, our school has kindly organized a normal event well known to other schools - Canteen Day :)

And my batch is lucky enough because we had our first Canteen Day when were were Form 1(2006) and fortunately, we were able to leave high school with the last Canteen Day we can possibly have. We could experience Canteen Day twice in our high school life, and it's a big matter for us because well.. we're TWELVEANS. Geddit? :P

This Canteen Day (CD) has definitely made a remarkable change in my high school life. I've never been this stressed before. I mean, I know no one forced me to do ANYTHING and I was the one who was willing to do EVERYTHING. But what can I say, Adeline Kong is 5 E's dai ka jie yaw. :P

There were tears, REAL GENUINE TEARS that practically flow down my cheeks on a fine Thursday morning just because I was too stressed, paranoid, frustrated, upset and worried about the Cupcakes presale. I had SO much going on in my mind, I had no idea where to start. I was so lost to the extend that I just broke down and cried because well, sometimes, I'm too emotional. Ceh!

But thankfully, everything went well :)

5 E had the longest list among ALL classes in SMK USJ 12. List? What list? The list of stalls of course :P Of course, who didn't want to do Haunted House? I'm sure many classes would want to do that, but then we decided not to as it requires a lot of work and all, and so, we wind down to Bubble Tea and Dunking Machine, which ended up.. well. We only did Dunking Machine :)

And I THANK GOD for that because with just 1 stall I was about to DIE already, I don't know what would happen with TWO stalls. :S

Here, I would like to thank all the Explorians for contributing their help in any way throughout this whole week. Although I am pretty pissed off with some who practically do nothing but complain non stop, I just guess that everyone has a different character. So I'll let it go. But I really hope that there isn't any backstabbing/gossiping/mouth bitching or whatsoever that goes on in our class. Ya'll know that I treat all of you equally as a big family, and I'm sorry for any words I said or actions I did that upset all of you. I just wanted everything to go well. I'm sorry if I ended up too bossy but like I (unwillingly) said, someone good has to come up with something, someone good has to do everything.

(For that, a big big big huge humongous gigantic THANK YOU to my Noobs who were there for me when I was facing the biggest break down ever and for helping me out in EVERYTHING! <3)

And with the help provided by all of you, I'm glad, proud and happy that 5 E's Dunking Machine went off the hook :) Because although I volunteered to do everything, nothing would have happened without you guys :) I love you la my Explorians :D

From shouting, scolding, cursing, screwing, crying, swearing, laughing and also..

"Oh my God. WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME GOD? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE ALL THIS!?!?!??!?!"

(HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. Please don't ask about that. XD)

.. everything went well, and I'm really happy and proud of my Explorians :)

Here, I would like to thank a few VIP! :)

For helping out to settle the forms and flyers -

Hoo Mun Yee.

Geraldine.

For getting orders for cupcakes -

Every Explorians who had the presale form. :)

For baking and decorating and doing the cupcakes -

Arinah.

Aina.

Zarifah.

Laura.

Debbie.

For staying back in school on Wednesday to collect orders from the afternoon sessions -

Laura.

Debbie.

Oliver.

Jian Xiang.

For staying back in school on Friday to distribute cupcakes -

Laura.

Zechary.

For staying back in school on Friday from 6am - 7.45pm just to set up the Dunking Machine and the stall, and to stack the tables up and to create perimeters AND to convince teacher for the bigger tub -

Hasif.

Arif.

Zechary.

Jian Xiang.

Laura.

Rajiev.

For coming as early as 5.30am today to set up the stall -

Hasif.

Oliver.

Zechary.

Jian Xiang.

Arif.

Jian Onn.

For calling up Monfort, checking out the machine, carrying the machine -

Su Ann.

And all the guys who carried it :P

For cleaning up the mess after everything today -

Kar Yin.

Geraldine.

Alison.

Zarifah.

Zechary.

Oliver.

Jian Xiang.

Hasif.

Debbie.

(And everyone who was present, sorry I forgot :( Maybe you can refer to the picture below :D)

THANK YOU TO EVERY ONE OF YOU EXPLORIANS BECAUSE IF IT WEREN'T FOR ALL OF YOU, NON OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED PERFECTLY :) Thank you for taking your shifts seriously and coming on time and doing everything in the perfect manner :)

I'm sure that ALL of you had great fun and let's hope that we'd earn a whole lot of cash! I promise I'll organize an awesome class party at the end of the year, and let's make our Senior Page an awesome one yeah? :)

And haha, thank you to those who has paid to play our Dunking Machine, :) AND ALSO TO THOSE WHO HAS SPECIALLY REQUESTED ME TO GET DUNKED. Mah Mun Chun, I hate you. :P HAHAHAH. Getting dunked was so friggen' awesome though the water was so friggen' dirty omg I wanna buy the Dunking Machine already :P

And lastly, THANK YOU TO SMK USJ 12 FOR ORGANIZING THE LAST CANTEEN DAY FOR US FORM 5s! :) Thank you to Puan Teo and Puan Regina who has helped out A WHOLE LOT. :)

From falling down from 2 stack of tables, from knocking my head on table edges, from getting paper cuts and bruises from I don't even know where, from getting a swollen finger from pushing the dunking target too hard, from climbing up on stacks and stacks of tables, from tying tonnes and tonnes of rafia strings, I guess that'll wrap Twelvean's 2010 Canteen Day up? :)

I am SO proud of all of you, thank you for EVERYTHING! :)

Look at the flood and mess we made! And look at how wet we were :D We made all the Explorians get wet in the end of the day, haha :P And the flood OMG it was SOOO deep. Look at Hasif and Jian Onn's feet and Kantha's hand :P

I LOVE MY EXPLORIANS! ♥

ps : The guys STINK like hell okay. Thanks to my Nivea lotion-like-odour deo and Paris Hilton(decided to use it since I know I'm gonna smell so deo alone won't help :P), I managed to smell nice the whole day even though I got dunked into a pool of dirty water for God knows how many times :P The water was as dirty as the one on the ground in the above picture! No joke! :D And btw we were in the tub and ON the machine in the picture. Jian Xiang, Chin Hua & I were on the machine :)

I guess I'm better off on my own :)

2010-04-18T11:33:00.003+08:00

It's been 55 days. By next Saturday, it's 3 months.

I guess it's by God's blessing that I moved on this quickly, but I have a story to share :)

When it first happened, I thought I was never gonna be able to move on, I thought I would be stuck behind with that tragic incident, I thought I would be living a sad life. Though I prayed everyday for myself to be stronger and happier, I thought God has never answered my prayers.

And although as days and weeks pass, I tell everyone that I'm seriously over it, I knew deep down inside that I'm lying, because sometimes, I do miss him.

I avoid going to places which reminds me of us, I avoid see couples, I avoid listening to songs that relates to our relationship.

Lately, I feel as if I've let go. I feel as if I've moved on. But I dare not assume and make confirmation by myself.

But yesterday, I tried to let go, and gave myself a test. I went out with a pair of couple whom I envy a whole lot (and also shares the same anniversary date with my previous relationship), and.. I realized, I've let go.

I've seriously, let go. I've moved on.

Sometimes, even until now, even at this moment, I still think of him. But I don't miss him as much as I did before. What's left is the reminiscence of our relationship, and I smile, because I knew I did my best. :)

I'm happy and proud of myself. Very! :)

So tell me once again, why the hell can't I be happy? :)

Even if it means falling down and getting ugly bruises.... :) Hehe.

Because school, is the reason why I was able to move on this quick. :)

Before this, I never looked forward to come home from school because.. well, I hate being alone because that's when my thoughts tend to go wild.

But now, finally, I have a reason to look forward to come home from school, I have a reason to look forward to logging into my MSN once I turn on my ~~computer~~, laptop :)

Suspense? :)

'Till the next update, I love you readers! Mwah mwah x.

ps : For the first time, I do not have to lie to myself when I said I've moved on. :)

There you are with your perfect way.

2010-04-13T17:50:00.002+08:00

People don't get emotional for no reason. I don't get emotional for no reason.

This isn't exactly a strong feeling, but it was something that has never happened to me before. One day, I was day dreaming, and I suddenly remembered something, and from there onwards, I caught myself falling into something I should not be falling for.

It's that frustrating, because I can't do anything about it. All I can do is just sit and stare at that green light, but not being able to do anything about all.

I don't want to regret doing it, but does that mean that I have to stop myself from doing anything at all just to avoid the awkward situation?

I don't know what to do....

Daily class journal.

2010-04-11T15:42:00.004+08:00

Firstly, HALLELUJAH and thank you Lord for listening and answering my prayers! Jack Jack was found on Tuesday :)

The story of the missing Schnauzer is somewhat dramatic and also, a miracle at the end :) It started on Sunday morning when my family & I were back in Ipoh for cheng ming. We were at the cemetery when my maid called and told us that Jack Jack went missing. She told us that he ran across the main road to the opposite side of the housing area. We were astonished by how Jack Jack, being such a small dog had the ability to run across the busy road.

We were suppose to head home from Ipoh after dinner. But since the news of Jack Jack reached us, we literally rushed home after cheng ming. My dad, brother and I drove around USJ 2 for hours to find for Jack Jack, however, there wasn't any good news at all.

The next day (Monday), my brother then set up Jack Jack's missing profile on the internet and photocopied 1000 flyers. This really kind dog tracker named Anthony then contacted my brother after seeing his notice online. Anthony then told us that he'll be heading to our house to help track Jack Jack later at night.

Night time came, it was drizzling and we formed a group out of 7-8 people just to hunt for our missing Schnauzer. Anthony brought along his dog, Jamie the Beagle to help us track for Jack Jack. The flyers photocopied were put into post boxes of every house, and we worked 'till 1am in the morning.

As the following day came(Tuesday), I got home from Biology class and headed straight to Taipan to hand out flyers to the vets/pet shops. The first shop my mom & I entered was Mayo. The nurse then told us that a customer of their's saw a person picking up a lost Schnauzer at USJ 4. We tried contacting the customer, however she didn't know the person who picked Jack Jack up.

Then, we went to the next shop where we normally buy Jack Jack's food from. Hallelujah, God bless us. There was a kind person named Mr. Lim who stays in Subang area. He left his number for us to contact him just in case anyone was lokoing for a missing Schnauzer. I was thrilled! I went home and immedietly sent pictures of Jack Jack to Mr. Lim to ensure that it's our missing Schnauzer.

Good news arrived. :) Jack Jack was given to a friend of Mr. Lim, Mr. Cheong who stays in Puchong since Mr. Lim has a dog himself already. Later at night, we traveled all the way to Puchong to get our Jack Jack back, and boy, wasn't that moment historical. Jack Jack ran towards my Dad when he saw him and started 'scolding' him for a couple of minutes! He couldn't stop jumping and growling and all! :)

I am more than thankful to have Mr. Lim and Mr. Cheong to take care of Jack Jack, and also to Anthony for helping out!

Read the full article here : http://puppy.com.my/forum/Lost_&_Found_C11/Lost,_Missing_or_Stolen_Dogs_F26/Missing_Miniature_Schnauzer_in_USJ_Subang_Jaya_P338739/

What's life without friends whom you can count on? :)

Yesterday, we had a girls night out to Strawberry Fields at Taipan. As expected, we knew we would bump into someone we know and voila, bumped into David, Muayyad AND Izaaz. :) After dinner, we helped Laura with the Twelveans Unmasked thing :) I got into the next audition with Oliver and Shen Yi for duet and Nova did get into the next audition too! Better still, Nova got the highest marks among all bands :) Nova FTW :) Didn't manage to get into Solo as the other competitors were REALLY strong as well! At least I got into Duet, and that's all that matters. Well, because I didn't even planned to enter Solo at the first place, it was just a backup plan just in case I screw Duet over. However we managed to changed our song for Duet the day before the audition, and I guess that's what made us score full marks :)

After dinner, Fatty wanted to have Snow Ice at 100 Yen. And we headed back to Panda's house for more camwhore sessions, and we laughed our multiple Noob stuff we talked about. :)

I love my Noobs! :)

That's all for now, 'till the next update, :D Bye!

ps : Damn desperate for an iPhone. Does anyone know how I where I can work in the shortest period to get RM 1600 bucks?

2010-04-05T22:26:00.004+08:00

MISSING.

• Miniature Schnauzer - Male (1 year old)

• Black body with greyish white feet, moustache and backside.

• Respond to the name of JACK - JACK.

• Microchip number : 458098500167252

• Last seen in USJ 2.

(To any Seafieldians, do help to look around :/ Thanks.)

• If found, kindly contact :-

◦ Aaron : 0122070200

◦ Rayson : 0192891136

◦ Adeline : 0172789078

REWARD WILL BE GIVEN!

My not so perfect 17th birthday.

2010-04-03T11:11:00.007+08:00

"Continue to make lots of noise in class 'cause without you, there's no E in Explorer.

E = Excitement = Adeline." - Arinah, ♥

Although things got outta hand and I wasn't really happy on my birthday yesterday, I'm still glad that I have my Noobs with me. It was a VERY last minute plan where we only planned it when school was almost over, they were nice enough to celebrate the last moments of my birthday with me in my house, and we fooled around until 2am+, practicing for Talent Quest and well, just being neutral Noobs. :) And oh, we prank called Chin Hua and Zack :P

& of course, that someone who has made my day a whole lot better, :) Gosh, how I wish I could just speak the truth, :( But it's impossible and it'll never happen.

Sigh.

Anyways, my Noobs got me a Physics book. HAHA. It was Panda's idea because she knows that I absolutely hate/despise/loathe/dislike/want-to-kill Physics. Ok lah for them, I'll try to score for Physics :P

The usual look of mine for not getting enough sleep for 3 nights consecutively.

My Noobs! Although not all of them were present, they still made my day :)

Part of the card I received from them. Haha so adorable :)

I love you Noobs like mad! :D Thanks for everything!

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2010-03-21T20:16:00.019+08:00

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2010-03-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

I just need someone. Just someone to make my wish come true.
14 more days.

Hey soul sister, ain't that mister mister?

2010-03-16T12:51:00.003+08:00

It's not about the things we did on the cruise that was fun. Heck, I don't even know what we did that was that much of fun. But one thing I know, it's not about any other things, it's the company that counts. :)

I don't know how this happened, but going for the cruise has definitely made a great impact on me. I mean, it's just a trip, right? But I have no idea, why everything meant so much to me. I guess it's for the reason that, they made me happy when I was really, really down.

:) & I honestly, can't wait for the next trip. Hopefully with the same company too. :)

Thank you Boss! :D

Lost.

2010-03-14T10:12:00.007+08:00

I miss you, and I don't know if I should do what's on my mind.

Why can't things just be more simple, and less complicated?

2010-03-12T16:14:00.005+08:00

I remember,

"Will you love me, if I promise to be a good girl?"

I've been good. Sigh.

So what exactly does this lead me to?

2010-03-11T14:44:00.008+08:00

If you were to ask me what I'm thinking about, I'm thinking about I-can't-explain-this-feeling-it's-annoying-but-I-don't-mind-having-it-as-it-makes-me-happier.

Okay fine. Maybe not that but honestly, everything in my head are all hay-wired.

I know it's impossible to get these sort of feelings, it's just, ridiculous, absurd, preposterous, and what, utterly foolish, I should say.

I mean, how could this possibly happen, in such a short period of time? It's not stupid, it's just something that can't be explained.

But I guess, love is blind, indescribable.

And I know, whatever I have in mind will never happen, I know that it's impossible, but I just know that :-

You make me smile like the sun,
Fall out of bed, sing like bird,
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record,
Crazy on a Sunday night.
You make me dance like a fool,
Forget how to breathe,
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee,
Just the thought of you can drive me wild,
Ohh, you make me smile.

Even if you're far, far away, and even if you wouldn't think of me, or even if you wouldn't notice me, you still make me smile. :)

Cruising.

2010-03-10T21:07:00.001+08:00

Here, this is my update :D
Looking forward for the next cruise trip!

2010-03-10T17:19:00.001+08:00

Lazy to update laaaaa, :S

Leaving.

2010-03-04T17:16:00.002+08:00

March Term :

BM - Okay gua.
English - Okay la.
Mod Maths - Phail.
Add Maths - Half pass half phail? :O I think I did OKAY though. Below average.
Biology - Geng. If I phail I suicide. Max also C ok. Or maybe B.
Chemistry - Phail.
Physics - Phail.
Moral - Phail.
Sejarah - Phail.
EST - I won't score well this time.

So March Term = PHAIL. With a capital P. Not F. P. Go figure. HEH.

Sorry. Webcam amat suck.
I'm going off. For a trip. :) Bye.

All that she wants.

2010-03-03T16:34:00.004+08:00

It hurts to know that I'm not approved.

And although I don't know why, I guess I'll just have to move on.

Les choses vont certainement jamais été le même sans toi à mes côtés. Je vais te manquer.

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2010-03-02T20:33:00.001+08:00

Y'know what? I've typed a long post before this, but screw it. Not gonna publish that.

'Cause for now, I feel like a complete FAILURE.

If this is what Love does to me, then I'll follow.

2010-03-01T22:47:00.004+08:00

I'm so, so proud of you. :) ♥

So how's exams so far, my fellow Twelveans? :D

My Chemistry is HALF screwed. :O

I will TRY to find something to update about after exams! Promise!

Mahjong + Poker sessions omg I can't wait.

Good luck!

6 Amanah/05.

2010-02-26T13:40:00.002+08:00

2005.

2006.

2010.

A new me :)

2010-02-25T17:08:00.007+08:00

I know it's weird that I can be happy in just a few days, but what else can I do, right? :)

I mean, of course I wouldn't be able to get over him quick, neither would I be able to stop thinking about him, and I won't deny the fact that I still and will always love him, but I believe that Happiness depends upon ourselves. So no matter how much I miss him or whatsoever, I'm not gonna let anything stop me from being who I am again.

I can make it through the rain,
I can stand up once again on my own,
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend,
And everytime I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith,
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain.

Thank you to those who has helped me out when I was SO down, thank you for all your support and concern. :) Give me some time, and I will turn out to be the Adeline ya'll use to know :)

Most of all, I thank you Lord for always being there when I needed someone, for giving me the strength, confidence and determination that I needed, and for keeping me strong all this while! Amen!

Besides, I have Elmo's BIG BIG smile to remind me to be happy :)

Now I just hope I'll be able to stay strong and I won't sam yuen like I always do :O

It's not that I don't deserve you,

it's you who doesn't deserve me, ;)

#14.

2010-02-24T00:00:00.001+08:00

You're every breath that I take, you're every step I make.

2010-02-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

When I heard your voice for the last time, it hit me hard on the heart.
I hung up, and cried my heart out.
I feel like a failure.

There comes my brother, screwing me over for the phone bill.
What joy.
Don't worry, kor.
No more high phone bills from now onwards.

For the last time, goodbye.

2010-02-23T20:16:00.010+08:00

24th December 2008, 6.44pm - 23rd February 2010, 6.16pm.

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It took me months to gather my courage to finally end this relationship of mine with one of the best boyfriend I've ever had.

He has given me the best, the most memorable, happiest, and (more positive things that you can think of) relationship ever, but also, the one that gives me the biggest heartbreak.

We watched each other grow for this (almost) 14 months. We watched how each other changed. How everything around us changed. It's gonna be tough going through this period, but one day, I'll just have to accept the fact.

Sure, it was one hell of a great exciting ride being with him, sure, it was also one of the most painful relationship I've ever gotten into.

Honestly, I don't really know how to express how I feel right now, but I guess, it's best to keep it to myself if I don't know how to. Perhaps I would edit the post whenever I figure a way to do so?

I've never fell out of love since 5th July 2008. It's a long, long time. For me, at least. I met him when I was with my ex boyfriend, and I also fell in love with him when I was with my ex boyfriend.

Yes yes, call me a player, I have nothing to care about now.

So basically, yes, I was in love since 5th July 2008 till today, 23rd February 2010.

My relationship with him started on 24th December 2008. Tomorrow should be our 14th month, but unfortunately, it wasn't our chance to last till our 14th month.

No doubt, I'm as sad as a rainy day, but till today, I am proud of what I've achieved, what I've done, and all the courage I've gathered.

It's gonna be tough and hard to forget everything, especially every memory we had together. But one day, I guess I'll just grow out of it.

For me, I've done the best I could to be the greatest girlfriend I can be, and my job ends here.

And although I have tonnes of questions to ask, I'd rather not. Although I would really want to know how everything even started from the very first place, from that one night were we suddenly just stopped talking. And although I would love to see you for the very last time and to listen to your voice for the very last time, I know that it'll never happen.

It's almost 14 months. But for now, I guess I'm on my own.

Goodbye Tzer Thorng. Thank you for the memories you've provided me. I can't thank you enough for everything we've done together, you've done for me, and every little tiny thoughts I can never think of. Although I'm still lost and confused, I wish you the best for everything you do in the future. You have given me the longest relationship I've ever had, and also one that I will never, ever forget. We've done CRAZY things together, and I'll never forget how happy those moments were. How we first knew each other, how we first met, how we start falling in love with each other, how I first heard your voice, I'll never forget. I'm sorry for everything that I've ever done that hurt you, but I just want to let you know that I don't mean it. Thank you for being the best-est boyfriend I've ever had. No matter what happens, you'll still remain as the most painful, but sweetest and most memorable memory in my heart. You know I won't stop saying this, but I love you.

So to say this officially, I'm single.

Though, I will always love you.

ps : Any post you see after this, it's a scheduled post from days ago this break up.
pss : Thank you to all those who has given me full support and listened to me and being there for me whenever I needed you. For once, I've made all of you proud.
psss : To those who asked what happen, please don't ask. If you're my close friend, you would know. If I've not told you, I'm sorry. I'd rather not talk about it again.