Monday, December 6, 2010, 11:06 PM
I can see it now.

Oh hai don't you miss my presence! Ikr. :)

SPM! Fuh I can't believe time flew by just like that. Seriously! It felt just like yesterday when we were sitting for our first BM paper. In a blink of an eye, I only have one more paper left to go! Well, two to be precise. Biology's on Wednesday and EST's on 15th. But who the heck studies EST right? So by Wednesday, I consider Merdeka already.

All these years in SMK USJ 12, :') Ah save that for another post shall we?

Here, a proper update of how I've been feeling lately :)

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Words can't describe how I'm feeling right now, but I'm so, so, SO lucky to have my two best friends with me. Through ups and downs, they've been there for me. They've listened to me and no doubt. Sometimes I wonder, why is it when we're getting closer and closer each day, we tend to fight even more instead?

It wasn't too late when it came to my senses telling me that Friendship is all about sacrificing for each other. It hurt me a lot when I get involve with an argument with either one of them. Times where I thought our friendship would come to an end are times where I would've rather die than not having them as my brothers.

I have Kantha, my adik whom I love oh so much. Although I'm supposed to be his kakak, it seems that he treats me more like a younger sister instead. Well.. I think so. He loves me like crazy and he sayangs me like crazy :) He gets me what I want and pays for my meals or even a cup of drink when I ask him to.

Thank you for being there for me all these while. And I'm sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings.

Kantharuban a/l Gunasekaran, I love you. :)

And most importantly, I have Arif, my special someone. He's Kenyan! And I like it. :9

I used to think that there are way too many obstacles in between us. Complications and difficulties for us to be together. But I guess if true love is there, then nothing should come in between, right?

Bie, I know that I've been terrible to you all these while. I didn't hit me up till today where I realize that it isn't all about me in our relationship. I'm sorry I've been such a stubborn and spoilt bitch. I hope that you would understand that it isn't my intention to be this way. I love you even more each day and I'm lucky to belong to you. You know me well, I'm straight forward. If I don't like someone, I'll just say it right out to their faces.

I guess you were the one who made me realize that I don't want to be the only one being pampered. I want you to be equally as happy as I am whenever we're together. You know me, I won't change for anyone. I expect people to accept me for who I am, if you can't, then simply fuck the hell off.

But for you, I'll change. No matter how difficult it is for me to relax and swallow up the anger in me, I will. Because nothing makes me happier than to see you smile and be who you really are whenever you're with me.

Thank you for being patient with me up till today. From now onwards, you don't have to be patient anymore. Simply because you won't have to have a reason to be patient. :)

Abdul Arif bin Kaharuddin, I love you :)

A rose wilts and dies, but it doesn't mean that it'll disappear as long as you keep it with you.

Same goes to us, bie :)