Sunday, February 7, 2010, 11:46 AM
School.
School is my first home, seriously.
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Things was fun, 'nuff said.
I laughed, I talked, I smiled, I teased, I stalked, I ate, I drank. Lol.
After everything was over, Amanda, Debbie, Zechary, Oliver and I (plus Debbie's sister and friends) walked over to Taipan for lunch. I used to think that it'll take a long time since the last time I walked from school to Taipan was with Wk during the last two Sports Day. But surprisingly, it wasn't that far, :O God knows what shortcuts we took.
On the way to Taipan. Just crossed the overhead bridge. Haha.
Apek with my Aviators. Lol.
Debbie and Amanda, sakai Laura ffked.
And Zack who stink like hell changed his shirt and put on deo on his way to KFC. Lol. :P
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That's 'bout it. Till the next update then. Bye.
ps : I still wanna know you HAHAHA.
Thursday, February 4, 2010, 2:51 PM
You've already got me coming undone.
They ALWAYS say, Two is better than One.
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The school bell rang, which indicates that school was over. It was 1.10pm, morning session students were scheduled to finish school on that time every Thursday.
I walked down with Amanda, telling her, "Sigh, how bad can my day get?" She asked Why, and I told her so. Honestly, I had no idea what was going on around me. I just feel happy, whenever that happens. I don't know why, I just do. Despite the insults I have from the Noobs, I-JUST-DON'T-KNOW-WHY, I'm happy - but still confused at the same time.
Sometimes I wonder why must my life do this to me, -__-"
Anyways.
I actually gave up for that today, for it didn't happen. But it wasn't until then when I walked into the library with her to accompany her finish of her duties.
I wasn't that upset, actually, I was just thinking about the consequences of a bad day when I reach home later on. Actually, I was afraid. I didn't want to be at home, I hated to be alone for months.
I walked out of school, to the place where I would usually wait for my Dad to come pick me up, to where I would normally reunite with some of the Noobs.
I walked, basically dream walking, looking at the path way, when suddenly..
Amanda gave a hard pull on my bag. She was behind me.
I turned behind, I saw the wide, cute smile of hers, and when I saw her eye rolled to someone else...
Everything happened in such a slow mode to me, a second felt like an hour to me, I don't know why. And...
I saw, I smiled, and that made my day a whole lot better, :)
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The question is, and still remains the same,
Is the juice worth the squeeze?
It makes me happy, I just don't know if it's worth the try.
And, why am I even blogging about this?
Monday, February 1, 2010, 11:54 PM
I don't want to do this anymore.
Sometimes I really don't understand the perception of life.
I was never satisfied, no matter how I tried.
What is my life trying to do to me?
I'm sorry I had to break one of my secret New Year resolution but this is seriously getting on my nerves.
I'm human too, I have feelings too, I deserve what I should get, and I deserve what I should not get.
Despite the fact that school is making my life a whole lot easier with my friends around me, things at home are way, way different. And it's annoying. It just is.
1st, is my ***. Which I have seriously no words to say anymore. She's been so emotionally screwed up since she left and it's pissing the hell outta me, I have chose to keep my mouth shut and let her words go through my right ear and just slip out through my left ear.
2nd, is unrevealed. Unless you wanna read and smack my head, tell me.
She asked me if I would prefer that it doesn't exist or stay as I am now, I answered, that it doesn't exist.
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As everyone goes to sleep with a peaceful mind and a happy heart, I'll go to sleep with a disturbed mind and a broken heart. G'night.
Sunday, January 24, 2010, 12:17 AM
#13.
Because you aren't like any other boyfriends out there,
Because you're extraordinary,
Because I love you too,
You're one in a Million.
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Happy 13th baby,
I love you.
Friday, January 15, 2010, 7:01 PM
All I can do is to brace myself..
..because it's not like anyone would care anyway.
I'm confused and down on everything that's going on around me. I'm jealous and annoyed by somethings I see around me. I'm upset and frustrated with the people around me. I'm disappointed and sad with the people I love.
I can't seem to concentrate as much as I did last week. I can't seem to understand what some people want from me.
I can't seem to get my mind off some jealousy crap but there's nothing I could do anyway.
Long cut short, I definitely do not have any F.I.R anymore. I keep asking myself, Why why why? But no one seems to give be the answer. Even when I see endless.. words from others.
Weekends are here and honestly, I've been dreading for the weekends to come. I'd rather be in school, facing unreasonable teachers, facing silly friends, than being home alone with no one to talk to and wander around my thoughts by myself.
Not to mention, to listen to my Mother's endless nagging. Damn annoying.
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Happy 17th Birthday, Rayna!
It's been great being friends with you for 5 years now.
You know I love you, ;)
Thursday, January 14, 2010, 5:35 PM
Mocha what?
Do you know who Mocha Jelly is? I do.
Friday, January 8, 2010, 7:52 PM
Friday I'll be over you.
When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.
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I've been so caught up with my Form 5 work for this 5 days and it seems like things didn't really stopped. -_-" We continued studying even from the very first day of school with teachers constantly reminding us about SPM. God.
Lose count on the number of days to SPM. I dowanna count already. :)
Today, I embarrassed the hell out of Debbie, D: I feel so bad so I made a deal not to bully her for the rest of the year. Or maybe month. Or maybe week, :P I'll be meeting her tomorrow though, yay :D Sadly Amanda couldn't make it. Bah.
Kept up with my homeworks so far. Hoping that I could carry on, I really don't wanna feel left out, D: Besides some of my teachers are getting so strict compared to the previous year.
Short update :) Gotta go do my Theory homework. I'm so stopping Theory after I pass my Grade 5 -.- I don't even like Piano, sml.
To those who are going tomorrow, see you there :D I don't even know what to wear, sml. Rayna if you're reading, is a sleeveless tank top and a dark grey leopard skin tights too much? I don't wanna wear dress 'cause later cannot have fun, :P
I need more clothes OTHER than dresses, sml.
A real friend is one who tells you that you look fine, even if you've jumped up and down like a monkey during karaoke and have your hair so messed up, :D
...and I'm mad glad that I have you guys, :)